Friday, October 29, 2010

Buck must find two college students Ch.13


ENCOMIENDA

Chapter13



Holding the piece of paper as he sat at his desk, Suarez said, “That’s one of the multinational agribusinesses. They own a lot of prime cropland around here and have several operations. I believe the letters stand for ‘Agricultural Green Grocer’ . . . or maybe it’s ‘American Green Grocer.’ Anyway, they never use the full name anymore. Everyone knows them as A-G-G.”

“Do they have a camp east of town? That’s where Teresa pointed.”

“They might. I’ll call ‘em. By the way, I got feedback on the fat guy. His name’s Joseph Beanland, nickname ‘Chunky.’ Last known address was in Pahokee. His traffic record is fairly clean: one ticket for running a stop sign and one DUI. Only priors are disturbing the peace, illegal fishing, hunting out of season, poaching on a national preserve, and an assault and battery for a bar fight. Seems like a mean, rowdy guy without a whole lot of respect for rules and regulations.”

“And knows how to handle a knife and a gun. How ‘bout his employer?”

“Listed as ‘independent contractor.’ Probably means he’ll do whatever he’s hired to do without compunction.”

“He must be working for AGG.”

“Could be.”

“That would explain Juan and Teresa’s reaction.”

“I’ll call now and ask about that, too.”

While Suarez was on the phone, I made a couple calls, too. One to the office: Neither Caridad nor Ruben had anything additional to report, except that Concepción’s insurer had sent a claims adjuster who would be arriving in Immokalee soon to look at the Samurai. Another to Christian Osceola.

His report was more interesting. He told me which migrant camps had the worst reputations. One was the private camp of a Dan Nichols, but this local farmer had had his stingy, ornery reputation for a long time and so attracted only the most naïve or most desperate workers – winos and bums; besides, his farm was southwest of town. The other two were contracted by AGG. The story there was that AGG itself had no brutal policy, but it was laissez faire in its management of the camps, leaving the details to the private contractors. One camp was north of town, but the other – the newest one – was east. This was its second year of operation. The Mexicans called the foreman ‘El Gordo,’ said he was the meanest crew boss around.

So, when Suarez got off the phone I knew what he would say.

“You’re right,” he said. “AGG has a contract labor camp east of town and the camp is contracted to one Joseph ‘Chunky’ Beanland.”

“Can we go out there now?”

“Sure, but since I have no warrant, we have to wait for an AGG official to accompany us.”

“Can we get a warrant?”

“Not on the basis of your disappearing witnesses. Don’t worry. An AGG guy is on his way here now.”

While we waited for that official, I stepped outside and called the office again and talked to Ruben. “Ruben, call Scotty, see if he can come here today and bring three or four of his guys with him. Tell him that they should come heavily armed and with their firearm licenses and security IDs and night gear and prepared for outdoor work. Call me back when you’ve made arrangements.”

“Sure, Buck. Should I come?”

“No, not necessary. This is more precautionary than essential. Talk to you later.”

I didn’t want Ruben to come because I couldn’t face Luli and the kids if something happened to him, and my belly was telling me that this case was about to take a nasty turn into something evil and brutal. If knives were going to slash and bullets were going to fly, I didn’t want Ruben in the path of any of those deadly metal edges and points.

I also wanted to get Iris to a safe place and make her stay put.

Scotty headed Bulwark Security Operations, a firm based in Fort Lauderdale. His men were the best: physically conditioned, well trained in both unarmed and armed combat, provided with the latest technology and weapons, disciplined and confident. Plus, he was a friend whom I had known since he left Whitehall and moved to the States to start his own security business some dozen years ago. He would honor my request and follow my instructions to the letter.

As I re-entered the station, Suarez was heading out. He had Deputies Johnson and Martha with him. This time I read her tag: surprisingly Johnson also. I said hello to the Deputies Johnson and shook their hands. Suarez said, “They’re coming with us, just in case. A show of force never hurts, with or without a warrant.”

“You and I think quite alike.”

Outside again, we met Melvin Alcorn, an assistant manager for the Immokalee operations of AGG. He looked fresh: white shirt, green tie, black trousers, work boots – all except the boots immaculate. He looked to be in his early thirties, but already a little paunchy, probably spent more time at his desk than in the fields. His brown hair was newly cut and groomed. He smiled a broad smile and asked, “Suarez?”

“That’s me. This is Buck Jaspers. He and the deputies will go with us.”

But Melvin had a question. “Just why is it we’re going out there to the east camp?”

“To see if some missing boys might be out there. We’ve heard they were seen there.”

“I doubt it.”

“How often do you go out there?”

“We’ve got eight camps, Lieutenant.”

“That wasn’t my question. Maybe I should ask when the last time you were out there was.”

“I was out there in October. Everything was in order then.”

“The very beginning of the season. Get in your truck. It’s time to pay a follow-up call.”

I said, “Mr. Alcorn, may I ride out there with you? I’d like to ask you some questions.”

“Ok, over this way.” I followed him to a white long-cab, pick-up truck displaying on each door a green triangle and the letters AGG in white with shadow.

As we pulled away from the station, I saw Iris running toward us, then stop and wave her arms. I couldn’t hear, but she seemed to be shouting something. I had purposely left her behind because I didn’t know how dangerous this trip could be. She looked angry. I hoped that she didn’t know how to hotwire a car; otherwise, my Z3 might soon be following us.

End of Chapter 13
 
More and more of our food is being grown by multinational agribusiness corporations.  They are very good at producing huge quantities of food and distributing it, but to do so, they use synthetic fertilizers, growth hormones, and pesticides.  So, what exactly are they distributing?  Is it as nutritious as they would like us to believe?  Are we getting more chemicals than is good for us?  Are there any other less dangerous ways to produce such vast amounts of food?
 
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Sunday, October 24, 2010

Accident on the poet's road



ACCIDENT: ROBERT FROST EXPRESSWAY

Ironic,

the traffic—

boisterous buses, truculent

trucks, cacophonous cars—

all tumbled together, scrunching

into the tip of an arrow

to pass by—ogling slowly—

the little Japanese

car and the Corvette

bashed together,

and their upwardly

mobile drivers

grimacing in

morning’s

heat and

fumes

on this road

more traveled.

And that!

Up there!

Was that an

avuncular poet’s

face sneering down

from the water-heavy

cumulus

over the city?



June 1987/2010

"Accident: Robert Frost Expressway" was first published in City Magic, 1987. It is a shaped poem, the visual form of which reflects its meaning.  I find it ironic that the author of "The Road Less Traveled" should have a Miami expressway named after him.  When I got tangled in a traffic jam one morning on that same expressway, the poem came to me--I began writing it on a notepad as I sat immersed in the conglomeration of vehicles.
 
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Saturday, October 23, 2010

Explosions: Challenger and Hindenburg



APOSTROPHE TO THE GOODYEAR BLIMP

ON BEHALF OF THE CHALLENGER



For us living

The cerulean bay is tacked with silver

As the colly birds ply from their rookery.



Once upon a time,

You were the inspiration

With which our hearts rose.



There was a time

In which, you too, exploded

At the very peak of rightness.



Now you’ve got that eye

For spectacle and catastrophe,

A wanderer among the winds.



You’re a silvered man

In aviation, wise and alive,

In your cool uses.



Pray for your baby.

Let her be worthy

Of the phoenix

And the unicorn.



January 1986

"Apostrophe to the Goodyear Blimp on Behalf of the Challenger" was first published in City Magic, 1987.  Shortly after the Challenger explosion, I was sitting on my balcony when the Goodyear blimp passed by.  It had been covering a sporting event in Miami.  My mind made the connection between it and the space shuttle; thus, the poem.

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Friday, October 22, 2010

Buck must save two colllege students Ch.12



ENCOMIENDA


Chapter 12


My cell phone rang as Iris and I were leaving the motel room for breakfast the next morning. I answered. A female voice said, “Es usted el hombre que buscara los dos muchachos?”

Sí, soy él.”

Yo les vi.”

Donde?”

Tiene los cinquecientos dolares?”

.”

Traigame el dinero y le decira.”

I agreed to meet her at a Mexican cafe in Immokalee.

On the way there, I called Lieutenant Suarez. “I got a bite on the flyers I spread yesterday. I’m going to meet her at the Caballero restaurant. Can you back me up?”

“Ok. I guess it’s huevos rancheros for breakfast. Give me a half hour.”

“If the info’s good, I’ll buy breakfast. Also, can you locate a homeless wino named James ‘Crickets’ Goodson? He’s done time for burglary and maybe some other things.”

“Ok, I’ll have a clerk look him up, and we’ll see what we got.”

Iris and I got there first to a one-story converted stucco house with a sign overhead announcing El Caballero, a green and red awning stretching the length of the house/restaurant and signs in the windows publicizing American and Mexican beers. I parked on the dusty street, told Iris to wait in the car and walked in bright sunlight toward the building.

Two figures stepped out of the shadow of the awning and stood in front of me. I squinted at them and shaded my eyes with my hand: one male, one female, Mexican, their bodies seemed young, but their Indian faces were hard and lined. The male wore a white T-shirt, blue cotton trousers, work boots and a baseball cap. The woman wore brown trousers, a denim shirt and tennis shoes. Her black hair was tied back in a ponytail. In her hands she gripped tightly one of the flyers I had spread around. Their eyes bore into me like little obsidian blades.

The woman said with a voice I recognized from the telephone, “¿Es usted el hombre . . .?”

Sí, sí. Yo soy el hombre.”

“¿Tiene el dinero?”

No estoy loco, sabe. Primero, tengo que estar satisfecho que su información es la verdad.”

The woman looked at the man with pleading eyes, but he remained silent and impassive.

Then I saw their eyes widen just before I heard a vehicle pull up and stop on the street behind us. They stepped back into the shadows and the woman dropped the flyer to the ground. I turned around. A large black Ford truck was idling in the street; a fishing pole and a shotgun rested in the rack on the rear cab window.

A huge white man got down from the cab and slammed the door and walked around, so he was facing us. A light blue jumpsuit barely encompassed his rolling flesh. A broad-brimmed straw hat rested on his broad scalp and muddy work boots held in his fat feet. I estimated his height, six feet four inches, and his weight, three hundred fifty pounds. His meaty, sunburned arms hung by his side. He was chewing as his tin-can eyes assessed me. A chill coursed over my body; I saw no human empathy in his eyes.

Then he looked past me into the shadow of the awning. “Juan, Teresa, I been wondrin’ when you were comin’ back to work. Come on. Get in. I’ll give you a ride.”

Teresa and Juan didn’t move. I said, “Excuse me, but we were talking. If they have to go to work, I can take them in a few minutes.”

He smiled, but the smile was insincere. “Well, we need ‘em to get to work now. Ain’t got all day. Vamos, Juan.”

“I told you I’d bring them in a moment. We’re discussing business here.”

He glared at me. “Bidness? What the hell kinda bidness you got wid ‘em? Who are you anyway?” He stepped forward. His hands rolled into fists and curled out again. “Look, mister. I ain’t got no truck wid you, so just min’ your own damn bidness. This ain’t got nothin’ to do wid you. But I need ‘em to come wid me.”

I readied my body for impact. I was sure he was going to take a swing at me.

Then Lieutenant Suarez pulled his car behind the truck, got out and walked quickly over. As he approached, he said, “What’s going on here?”

The butterball softened and stepped back like he remembered something he had to do. “Hi, deputy, nothin’s happenin.’ Jus’ lookin’ fer some a’ my workers. Got crops to get in.” He walked back to the truck, got in and rumbled away.

I said, “Who was that?”

Suarez said, “I don’t know his name, but I’m pretty sure he’s an overseer out at one of the farms.”

“Did you get his license?”

“Sure did. I’ll run it later and see if there’s any dirt on him. Did your informant show up?”

“Yeah,” I turned and found behind me a blank wall. “Well, shit, they were here a minute ago. Butterball must’ve scared them off.” I ran to my car and shouted back, “Gonna skip breakfast! Maybe I can still find them!”

As I climbed in, Iris said, “Whoa, who was that mountain? Was that the fat man? Was that El Gordo?”

“Don’t know. Crew boss maybe.”

I gunned the engine, scooted away from the curb and made a sharp right at the next corner. I scanned left and right for two small shapes, but saw nobody who resembled Juan and Teresa. I slowed to a cruise in second gear and the car growled down a street with fields on either side. I scanned again both fields. Each had undergrowth that someone could hide behind. I stopped the car and yelled, “Juan! Teresa! Venga! Tengo su dinero!”

Silence.

I motored slowly forward another thirty feet, stopped and yelled again the same plea. “Juan! Teresa! Venga! Tengo su dinero!”

Then I spotted on a parallel street Butterball’s black truck – pacing me. I knew the search would be useless as long as he was tagging along.

I did a U-turn and zipped back to the restaurant. Suarez was standing by his car. I stopped, got out and walked to him. He nodded and said, “No luck?” as if he knew the answer.

“No luck. But I know their names – Juan and Teresa.”

“Juan and Teresa what?”

“They didn’t say.”

“Well, with twenty-five thousand migrants in town, most of them Latino, how many Juans and Teresas do you think we have here?”

“A couple thousand?”

“Maybe.”

“But I’m sure they’re a couple.”

“That could narrow it to dozens.”

“In their twenties.”

“Ok, I’ll ask around.”

“Very Indian campesinos.”

I didn’t realize how intense I was until Suarez touched my arm and said, “Could you eat some breakfast now?”

“Yeah, that’ll settle my thoughts . . . and I’ll buy.”

“Then let’s don’t eat here. Bad rep. Follow me to a better place.”

We ate at a truck stop on the edge of town. I gave him all the details I could remember about Teresa and Juan. Suarez said that the fact that those two had shown up was a good sign, probably meant the boys were in the area.

For his part, he passed me a printout on James “ Crickets” Goodson. I skimmed it. Crickets had been arrested a few times for B and E, the last time over ten years ago. Since then he’d had arrests for disturbing the peace, possession of illegal substances and public intoxication. He had transformed from a professional thief into an alcoholic day laborer. His glory days were over.

I said, “Any chance locating him.”

Suarez said, “It won’t be easy, but I’ve got all the officers keeping an eye out for him. The thing is that he could be passed out in some thicket all day. What does he have to do with the missing boys?”

Iris said, “He’s seen them and he knows where they are. I talked to him yesterday.”

Afterwards, he cleared the dispatcher to do an all-points bulletin for Teresa and Juan, with a description. I liked him even more than I had.

While Suarez was doing his checking, I drove Iris around Immokalee to get a better feel for the place. It was busy. Busloads and truckloads of migrants heading out to the fields. Homeland Security personnel sitting in cars and checking the buses and trucks as they passed. Packing houses with trucks queuing up to be loaded, and loaders stacking crates of vegetables in each truck in turn. Trailer parks and the rows of small houses sat devoid of inhabitants, who were all hustling for their daily bread. I heard English – Southern and Caribbean – Spanish – Central American and Caribbean – and Haitian Creole among the voices filling the streets. Everyone hustled for all he or she could get.

And the missing boys were somewhere in the bustle. Buried alive. I felt sure they were alive and not far away. And my encounter with the fat man had shaken me up. What if he was part of what had gobbled them up? I didn’t like that. And I didn’t like the evil gloom that had passed as that man’s shadow.

Iris said, “That fat man gave me a chill. Do you think the boys are here somewhere?”

“Don’t know, but my gut is saying yes.”

My phone rang. Teresa’s voice pleaded once again for me to meet them at a convenience store on the edge of town and bring the money. I did. Nervous and shy, this time Juan handed me a packing label with a green triangle and the white letters AGG set in the broad base of the triangle. Teresa pointed east and said, “Alli estan sus hijos.”

Traiga me.”

No, no, señor. El Gordo es muy malo. Tenemos miedo.”

Their faces were taut sheets of terror, so I pulled out the five hundred and handed it to them. “Ok. Muchas Gracias.”

Por nada.” They nodded unsmiling and disappeared into the bustle of that town. I never saw them again.

Iris said, “What did they give you?”

I showed her the piece of paper.

“It looks like a logo of some kind.”

As midday approached, we sat in the car and looked at the piece of paper with the green triangle. Suarez would know what it meant, so I went to his office. Iris sat on a bench outside the station and read her science textbook.

END of Chapter 12

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Sunday, October 17, 2010

Dad has heart disease, mother has cancer!


SAVING GRACE


The autumn day Rory rejected the version of Christianity that he had grown up with had been the day that as the chosen sixteen-year-old youth pastor of the Calvary Baptist Church, he had preached the sermon “Come to Jesus and Be Saved.” He had been nervous his first time behind the pulpit, but as soon as he began to speak, the nervousness passed. He did his duty: poured forth the necessity to be saved from sin, offered Christ’s sacrifice to atone, and issued the steps to salvation. Somewhere in the middle of the sermon, he looked into the enraptured eyes of his audience, felt their hunger to believe, and knew that he no longer did. Despite that disbelief, after the sermon he stood at the doors of the church and shook the congratulatory, complimentary hands of the congregation.

His mother was especially proud of him and stood before him in a navy blue dress with white polka dots. For the first time he noticed that his mother was gaining weight. She had always been thin, but her stomach had rounded and was pushing against the limits of the dress. Was she going to give birth again?

“Oh, Rory, let me give you a hug.” He let her and she seemed as intense as he had ever seen her. When she pushed herself away, tears gleamed in her eyes.

His sister Chloe, half his age, hugged him, too. She said, “You’re better than Preacher Simms,” which made him laugh.

To celebrate the triumph, his portly father, a deacon of the church, took them to a restaurant for Sunday dinner. “Order anything you want,” said the father, who thought of food as God’s reward.

Rory’s steps away from the church had been occurring for months, and he had come to see God more as a temporal adversary than as an all-knowing, all-directing, everywhere-present force.

First, God had impeded his plan to become a jet fighter pilot by diminishing his ocular clarity: he discovered that when more than a year ago he had applied for a driver’s permit. It was a blow to his vision of the world. Since God was all-directing, he asked the question: Why did You do this, God? Now I must wear glasses and am ineligible for fighter-pilot training. I’ll have to come up with a different life plan.

Second, his pious father had had his first heart attack. The doctors said he might have only a year left: he had eaten too much fatty food and not enough fiber: beef, pork, dairy products, ice cream, refined flour, refined sugar and fried chicken. Rory’s question was, God, if You’re all-knowing, why didn’t You tell this very good man who believes in You about the dangers of a high-fat, low-fiber diet? Rory received no answer, but he gave up eating large quantities of such foods as his father had loved and consumed all his life.

However, one prayer was answered: his father didn’t die. He cut back eating the dangerous foods and took the medicine prescribed for him for high blood pressure and high cholesterol and began walking every evening after supper. In six months, he had lost twenty pounds.

Then Candy dumped Rory because he was trying to follow God’s commandments. Lately, the couple had been discussing “plans,” a natural course of conversation for two who had been sweethearts for two years. Her plan was marriage and nesting. His plan was college and an uncertain future thereafter. She said, “Yet. . . .” He said , “Not yet.” Of course, they had sat next to each other on the bus, held hands, kissed, embraced, necked and made out. What was next?

Next came one night as they kissed and caressed each other lying on the long front seat inside his father’s car. Rory dared more that night than he had before. He opened her blouse, unsnapped her bra, felt the soft roundness of her breasts and the hard roundness of the nipples. The two sweethearts breathed heavily, almost in unison.

“Take your shirt off.”

He tore it off and they pressed their soft, fragrant flesh against each other.

Rory reached down and unfastened her jeans and when she didn’t stop him, he pulled them down, so she could wiggle her feet free of them, so she lay before him in the flesh except for her white panties with pink hearts printed on them.

He pressed himself on her again and reached his left hand down and cupped the mound inside her panties. She gasped but didn’t object. He rubbed the mound, softly. She moved as if in involuntary undulations beneath his hand. She moaned, softly. He slipped his hand inside the panties and rubbed the mound, soft and moist. Her moan grew louder, her breaths deeper. He drew the panties off, sat up and looked at her lovely body and saw the damp crevice and felt his penis grow and harden. In his mind he saw something else: a swollen belly, a crying child, a drunken brute, the towers of Ilium burning, sperm-like meteors crashing into the earth as the dinosaurs gaped and shivered.

She said in a voice heavy with desire. “Let’s do it.”

He leaped into the back seat, almost breathless. “I can’t. I’m not ready.”

She sat up and looked across the back of the seat at him as if he had taken all the chocolates she had been about to eat.

In November, since she was ready and he was not, she dropped him for an older boy who was as ready as she was. His mother said, “Don’t worry. In college you’ll meet many more interesting young ladies than Candy.”

He felt guilty, as if he had eaten the fruit of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil and could be chased from paradise at any moment. He asked God, Why did You make the most inviting act a sin? After the night he had spurned sex with Candy, whenever he looked at this mother, a shiver of guilt ruffled his spine, because he knew what his mother and father had done to bring him into the world. He also knew they wouldn’t approve of his growing skepticism about their religion.

In the winter of his sixteenth year in his advanced placement history class, the students were required to choose a book from a reading list. He chose a book about spiritual leaders Socrates, Confucius, Buddha and Jesus. Socrates and Confucius, polytheists, spoke of being true to one’s individual ethical self, rules of morality and the community. Buddha and Jesus, monotheists, spoke of being true to one path and separating oneself from the community of sinners and sufferers who didn’t believe exactly the same way. The first two brought everyone into a joint reality; the latter two separated society into opposing groups.

One day as he sat at the family dining table and read the book, his mother walked by and casually said, “What’re you reading?”

“A book about philosophers and religious leaders.”

“Oh?”

“Did you know Buddha had similar ideas to Jesus’?”

Her eyes widened. “Don’t say that! Don’t ever let your father hear you say things like that!”

He wouldn’t say anything about his ideas to them ever again, but his appetite for more knowledge and understanding had been whetted. Nevertheless, the doubting cat was out of the religious bag, so his mother knew he doubted, although she would not tell the father, who she knew would be chagrined by their son’s diverging awareness.

Rory wrote his report about the four religious-philosophical leaders and teachers, and asked his teacher what he could read that was more modern. His teacher said, “There’s always Spinoza.”

A few days before his seventeenth birthday, his mother had asked him what kind of cake he wanted for his birthday. As usual he said chocolate. In a voice that seemed part reassurance and part warning, she said, “You’re almost a man now.”

On his birthday, he came home to an empty house, devoid of sounds of the family moving about, of the smells of supper cooking, of any activity. Curious, he put his school gear in his room and went into the kitchen. On the kitchen counter were a stack of three nude cake levels, without frosting. They appeared obscenely unclothed. Mother hadn’t finished his birthday cake.

She had seemed tired recently. Had she fallen asleep? He looked into his parents’ bedroom: clean and neat as usual, but no mother.

He looked around for a note. Perhaps his father had been delayed at work. Something unusual was going on, but he didn’t know what. He turned on the television, but he had little interest in the programs.

An hour later, he began to worry. Why hasn’t anyone called to tell him they were doing this or that and would be late?

Hungry, he made himself a baloney sandwich and a glass of tea and sat at the dining room table. Had an emergency occurred? He remembered how as a rambunctious boy, he had often injured himself and had to be taken to the emergency room to be stitched up or his bones set. Had his sister Chloe done something like that?

Then he remembered his father’s fragile condition. Had he had another heart attack? Was he back in the hospital?

Rory had no answers, so he fetched his school books and did his math homework. Math had a calming effect on him because numbers were straightforward and he found the shapes and proportions of geometry beautiful and the formulae of algebra challenging like solving a puzzle. Once he was working, he became absorbed in the numbers and equations until he realized that darkness was falling and squeezing his vision.

He reached back to turn on the dining room light, and, that very instant, the phone began clamoring as if God Himself were calling.

Rory ran to the phone and lifted the receiver. “Hello.”

His father’s shaky voice said, “Rory, I’m sorry I didn’t call before now. Did you get something to eat?”

“I made a baloney sandwich. What’s going on?”

“We’re at the hospital. Your mother had an emergency. We’ll be home in an hour or so.”

“Is she ok?”

His father sobbed, unable to talk.

“Dad, don’t worry about me. I’ll be here. Have you and Chloe eaten? Should I fix something here?”

“No, we ate. See you in a while.”

Rory tried unsuccessfully not to worry, but gave up doing homework. He doodled and wondered what could have happened to his mother until his father and sister finally clattered home. His eight-year-old sister ran up to him and whispered the word that she had heard for the first time that afternoon. “Cancer. Mommy has cancer.” But he could see that Chloe had no comprehension of the implications, no dread.

To his father, whose eyes were red from crying and whose shoulders slumped wearily, he asked, “What kind of cancer?”

“Breast.”

“Just like her mother died from.”

“Yes. Let’s sit down, hold hands and pray.”

The father, the son and the daughter held hands and sat on the couch as the father quietly prayed to the God that he had believed in for many years. Rory thought, He’s praying to the God that directed this, that let the cancer attack my mother and his wife, according to his beliefs. Rory’s thoughts blocked him from the prayer, but he held on tightly to his father’s hand because he loved his father and his mother.

After the prayer, his father retrieved and handed to Rory a $20 gift certificate that his mother had bought for him for his birthday. It was to a bookstore in the nearest mall, so Rory went there the next day and bought a book about Spinoza and his ideas.

A few days later when he visited his mother in the hospital, she seemed thin and pale. Holding his hand, she told him, “Rory, they cut away my breasts to save my life.” Then she began to cry.

“Don’t cry, Mother. We’ll take good care of you.”

“Oh, Rory. I’m crying because you had an awful birthday.”

“It’s just a birthday – another day in a year of days. But thanks for the gift certificate.”

“But this memory will be part of all your birthdays.”

He knew she was right. How could he ever forget his seventeenth birthday, when he had changed from a child into a man and had begun to put away childish thoughts?

“Are you helping your father around the house?”

“Doing the laundry, sweeping, washing dishes. Dad’s doing the cooking.”

“How’s he doing? He’s never cooked before.”

“Not so good. He only knows two spices: salt and pepper. And he knows only one method: pour it on. I’m trying to figure out some way of taking over the cooking without insulting him.”

She covered her mouth to disguise her laughter, but her eyes twinkled with mirth; Rory, seeing her momentarily happy, began laughing, too. They laughed because they shared the knowledge of the father’s ineptness in the kitchen. Rory thought, as inept as Father-God is in the world.

“You get home before he does. Just get supper going. You know where my cookbooks are. Just follow the directions. Let him finish it.”

“I can do that.”

“You have to do so much now.”

His mother came home for a week and directed his cooking, so the food was tastier. Worried about her health and her family, she forgot to ask what he had bought with his gift certificate, and he read Spinoza in his room where he could keep his study private (Caute! Sub rosa).

Then she was flown to Houston, Texas, for radiation treatments and chemotherapy. While she was gone, their entire church congregation held a prayer vigil for her recovery. Rory thought, sort of like calling a house where the phones lines had been pulled out of the walls. No one’s home. Moved. Service discontinued.

When she came back, she was tattooed with blue and red marks where the radiation gun had shot her. And she seemed thinner.

She was weaker and could barely sit in a chair. She was in pain, so Rory would see her as she walked from one room to another suddenly gasp, stiffen and lean against a wall for a minute. But if he tried to help her, she waved him off. “No . . . just give me a minute . . . to catch my breath.”

His father prayed every night for a miracle. His father told him what the doctor had said, “Mother waited too long. She knew something was wrong, but was afraid to tell anyone. She’s not going to live.”

She went out again to Houston in a cycle of every few weeks. Each time she came back thinner and weaker as if some vampiric demon in Houston was sucking the life out of her. Rory and his father moved a cot into the living room, so she could be with them. Wearily she told Rory, “You are a difficult, but rare, person. I worry about you, but I see the good in you.”

Finally, she was a skeletal figure who could barely speak. Rory was reminded of the pictures he had seen of holocaust victims in Nazi death camps.

Only her eyes remained their normal size and when she was awake they seemed, accusingly, to follow Rory around the room as he went about doing the chores that formerly she had done for the family all her life. One day, as she lay on a cot that had been pulled into the living room, her bony hand reached up and grabbed Rory’s arm as he was passing wearing her ruffled apron. She pulled him toward her and warned in a rasping, breathless voice, “Your father is a good man. He loves you children dearly. Don’t disappoint him.”

“I. . . .” He wanted to say I have to be who I am, but instead, he said, “I won’t.”

But her tracking watery eyes said she didn’t believe him and that she knew he was moving away from them in some way.

During her next trip to Houston, the demon finished her off. God just stood by, twiddling his thumbs and whistling, evidently, was Rory’s ridiculing thought, and he was surprised at how easily he discounted the patriarchal God’s force in the world as if He were a silly, weak old man with a squeaky voice.

At the funeral Rory saw his mother’s body, no longer thin or pale, in the coffin. It resembled once again the woman who had raised him for seventeen years. His sister Chloe came up to him beside the coffin. She spoke softly, “Mommy’s going to heaven. That’s why they have her so pretty looking.” He kissed his sister on the top of her childish head.

The next week his father – unshaven for several days and wearing the stale, wrinkled pajamas he had worn for those same days – sobbed, “I . . . hate . . . God!” Rory said nothing, but he halted supper preparations, walked to his father’s shaking figure, put his arms around his father and held him while his father sobbed. For Rory, the paternal God had become irrelevant; only a believer could hate Him.

END
 
This story is based on my family.  Mother did die of breast cancer. In 1963 the treatments and diagnostic methodolgy were not as advanced as in the 21st century.  Back then breast cancer was practically a death sentence.  Now the recovery rate has improved astoundingly, and women are much more aware of the danger signs and can be screened regularly.
 
We also know the connection between diets high in red meat fat and heart disease and colon cancer, so we can protect ourselves from that.  And sugar and diabetes.  We have advanced thus far through the application of medical science.
 
Also, if I were young today, I could be a fighter pilot since the main focus of the modern pilot is the electronic display in front of him.  One no longer needs eagle eyes to be effective.
 
Teenagers today are much more open about sexuality.  That must be liberating, although sometimes I wonder what such casual acceptance might cost us in other ways.
 
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Saturday, October 16, 2010

a true believer


LIVING A LEGEND


Green was his growing

Life centered on fable;

Goodness circled him

Like reverent children and a fruitful wife.

His Good Book mirrors his life;

The dog-eared pages—his days—

Plump with beneficent deeds,

Turn around a saving strength.

His ministry charmed, mellifluous

And merciful, but with brimstone hints.

His celestial eye burned at sin,

Seared devils from his brothers’ craft—

All for thunderbolts

                             And mystics

And puffs of hereafter.

Pagans, sex, and Marx he fought,

And skeptical laughter.

His mammoth hands were braces

For weaker believers

And could rein a cloven-hoofed beast

Or sledge a stake for revival.

His talents tapped relief

From mammon’s grief.

Around him, belief was a trust fund,

Durable and enduring,

Though balanced on fable,

Green was his going.



February 3, 1981


"Living a Legend" was first published in Monsters in a Half-way House, 1981.  I was thinking of my father when I wrote this poem.  He was a true believer who took his religion very seriously.  He was also strong and had a green thumb, for he often had a garden from which his family harvested many vegetables: corn, potatoes, tomatoes, cucumber, squash, onions, garlic, beans, peas, sweet potatoes, peppers, cabbage, collards, turnips, lettuce, okra, and melons.  Living with him, the family prayed and read a passage from the Bible every night and we attended church Wednesdays (night prayer meetings) and Sundays (morning and evenings services).

What stuck with me was that a spiritual life was as necessary as the physical, mental, social, and financial lives that one leads.

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Friday, October 15, 2010

Buck must find two college students Ch.11


ENCOMIENDA


Chapter 11



Yet, I had a child waiting for me in the motel room – I thought. Iris wasn’t there when I returned. Her backpack was there, so she hadn’t gone home.

While I waited for her to return, I turned on the television to try to find something worthwhile or at least entertaining. I checked the sports channels and found no contests that I would be interested in. Football was over. Baseball hadn’t begun. Too early in the day for soccer, unless from Europe. Too early for basketball. No races. No tennis because all the pros were in Australia, so they were all asleep. Mostly sitcoms, soap operas or talk shows on the broadcast channels. I checked for history, learning, discovery, court, art or entertainment, and finally settled on the Animal Planet, which was running some of the Big Cat Diary series. That was a favorite show of Churchill and Franklin. I often watched with them.

Then the room door clicked open and Iris came in. She said, “Hi, how’s it going?”

“Fine. Whatcha been up to?”

“Been out scouting.”

“For what?”

“To see if I could get any leads.”

“On my case?”

“Sure, what else?”

“Damn it, Iris, I don’t want you putting yourself at risk.”

“They’re just missing boys. I don’t see anything too risky.”

“So, where did you go?”

“Up and down 29.”

“Did you find anything?”

“Yeah.”

“What?”

“People have seen them.”

“But no definite leads.”

“No, but my Spanish isn’t great, so I didn’t always understand everything someone said, but the boys are definitely around here somewhere and working.”

“Are you sure they weren’t just trying to get the $500?”

“Yes, because I didn’t show the flyer. I folded one so only the photos of the boys showed. I told everyone they were my brothers and I was looking for them because our father was sick and wanted to see them before he died.”

“Not bad.”

“It got a lot of sympathy.”

“What were your best responses?”

“Several Latinos said they had seen them . . . in this field or that field, but they didn’t know where they stayed. Yo le vi . . . en el campo. Stuff like that.”

“Pretty vague.”

“Then there was this old wino with a few days of stubble. He said he had seen them a few days ago, but he couldn’t talk without some refreshment, so I gave him five dollars to buy some wine. He smelled like he had fermented. We went into a hammock. He sat on a log and talked while he drank.”

“Did you believe him?”

“Yes, I did.”

“Why?”

“Because he had no reason not to tell the truth.”

“Did he give any details?”

“Let me see if I can put it in his words: ‘Missy, I seen ‘em, no more fer away than you and me. But don’t go there. It’s an evil place. Devil dogs and brutes. Like a ring of hell. I had to hide in the fields to get plumb away. I seen ‘em all right. Chained and whipped. I seen ‘em. But nobody will see ‘em no more if’n they don’t get outta that damned place. They eat ‘em up like cannibals there. Drink their blood like vampires. Don’t go! Don’t go near the fat man. Don’t go near El Gordo.”

“Sounds like a lot of alcoholic yammer.”

“Well, if you know how to interpret, it’s still convincing. If you have an ear for that kind of talk."

I had to admit that she did have an ear for it. And a memory for language. And an ability to mimic that was pretty convincing. “No, I know what you mean. Nice work, Iris, but I have to insist that you stay out of danger. Do you think you can find this wino again?”

“Not sure. I’m pretty sure he’s homeless, so no telling where he’d be.”

“Did you get his name?”

She spoke in his words again. “Call me Crickets. I’s born James Goodson, but then ever’body called me Crickets ‘cause when I’s a kid, I’d catch crickets ‘n’ carry ‘em in my pocket. Been Crickets ever since.”

“James ‘Crickets’ Goodson. Probably has fingerprints on file somewhere. Has to have a record of some kind if just for public drunkenness.”

She mimicked again. “Know what I use to do fer a livin’? B ‘n’ E. An’ I was good. Did it fer years till I got caught. An’ you know what got me caught. Them damn crickets. Had two in my pocket ‘n’ I guess they fell in love er somepin cause right in the middle of the burglry they started clicking and chirping like I had a amplifier in my pants. The owner come out wid a shotgun to see what the racket was. I jes lay down and said, ‘Ya caught me, buddy. I ain’t gonna fight it.’ He said, ‘What’s that damn racket?’ And I said, ‘Crickets, jes crickets.’ He laughed until he started coughing.”

“A story he’s probably told a hundred times to a hundred drinking buddies and cellmates.”

“Of course.”

“Are you hungry?”

“Very.”

“What you want for supper?”

“Pizza.”

“Should we order in or go out?”

“Let’s go out. This room gets pretty monotonous.”

So we went out and found a pizza place and we ordered a large pizza pie with everything except anchovies. I also got an antipasto salad. I ate most of the antipasto. She ate three-quarters of the pizza.

During the meal, Iris confessed that she wanted to be a reporter. “You know, digging in here, digging in there, getting the dirty facts.”

“And you will be good at it. You show some real skill there already.”

“It’d also help me travel. You know, a war in the Middle East. A nuclear conference in Asia. A global warming seminar in Switzerland. A riot in Venezuela.”

“A foreign correspondent.”

“Yeah, I’d like that.”

When we had finished, she said. “Let’s don’t go back to the motel. Let’s go the beach. The sun is just setting. Come on.”

“Ok.”

I drove us to the beach and the Naples pier. Lots of people were strolling on the pier, and she led me among them and we wound our way until we reached the far end, out over the water a hundred yards from shore.

The sun was just a blip on the horizon. Everyone stood and looked at it as if they were all hypnotized or enchanted. Bip! The microscopic sun disappeared, but the sky remained bright for a while and the clouds burned with gold borders. The sea darkened first as if a black mist had risen from the bottom of the sea, although the white surf flounced in like lace on the cuff of a dandy.

Iris said, “Absolutely mystical.”

I said, “Very nice.”

“Are you romantic?”

“Sometimes.”

“I’m going to fall in love with a powerful man.”

“Good luck with that.”

“He doesn’t have to be extremely rich or famous. But he has to be the kind of man that others listen to.”

“The question is, will you listen to him?”

“Don’t be nasty.”

“Sorry. But I can’t see you kowtowing to that kind of man.”

“Please, let me dream a little.”

“My lips are sealed.” And I didn’t say another word because I didn’t want to spoil her fun. She was off on the kind of rapturous fantasy that only fifteen-year-old girls imagining their future are allowed. And she had quite an imagination. I had gotten rather fond of her, an inspired wanderer with a gift for mimicry and an insatiable curiosity.

With darkness rising, she said, “You’re finished working for the day, aren’t you?”

“I guess so.”

“Let’s go to a movie.”

“Which one?”

“That one with Scarlet and Bill Murray.”

“You mean Lost in Translation?

“That’s right. You haven’t seen it yet have you?”

“No.”

“Then let’s go.”

“All right, but I have to tell you that it doesn’t sound like my kind of movie.”

“You probably like action flicks.”

“Depends.”

We found a theater where Lost in Translation was playing.

I took a while warming up to the movie, but I stuck with it and eventually I was into it, and liked it thoroughly. Iris seemed to lock into it right away. She was beguiled. At the end she had a tear in her left eye, but I made no comment because I had a little lump to deal with in my own throat.

Leaving the theater, Iris said, “So, did you like it?”

“Ok, I did.”

“There was love there but they couldn’t do anything about it.”

“Not and keep their honor.”

On the drive back to the motel, she was quiet and looked out the window as if she were still in a rapture of thought.

When we were in our separate beds in the dark, she said, “Could you love a much younger woman?”

“Depends on the woman.”

“I think I could love an older man.”

“As long as he’s the kind other people listen to?”

“God, Buck, you don’t forget much, do you?”

“Look who’s talking.”

“Good night.”

“Good night.”

End of Chapter 11
 
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Sunday, October 10, 2010

In the future where a god was born



OF GODS AND BEASTS



The paraglider had been made and Mawgri had brought it home the night before, so I had already inspected it and found it true to my specifications. I woke eager to go to the mountain, but Mawgri, to tease me, pretended to want to loll around in bed.

“Come back. What is your rush?”

“Mawgri, You know this is important to me. I know from the logbook—‘the sacred, unreadable book’—that Captain Hennessey and his ship are in the cave on the mountain.”

“Very well. I’ll go with you to the airbase.”

“Airbase?”

“Yes, the Emperor Sacacon is having one of his best, most trusted pilots fly you, and he has ordered a cameraman to film your flight, so they can study how you manipulate the paraglider. We have two hours before flight time.”

We cleaned and dressed. I donned my uniform and full body armor with weapons and helmet. Mawgri, who had pulled a simple black bodysuit over his pale green-and-yellow scales, said, “Ah, you are magnificent: the warrior of Earth.”

“Cut the cracks. I’m ready. All my bags are packed. Don’t forget to take them with you.”

“I won’t.”

“When will you come to get me?”

“Tomorrow morning. That will give you a day and night on the mountain.”

“Let’s go.”

Luvark, assigned by the Emperor, drove us in the yellow car, but we didn’t discuss what we were up to. I told him I was testing a new parachute that Sacacon wanted for his paratroopers. The drive to the airbase took us down the mountain, across the plateau, and down another ridgeline.

From our final descent, I could see the airbase below in the desert basin, and I then realized how intensely the Saca Empire was preparing for conflict. The airbase was huge, encompassing kilometers and kilometers of runway, at least a dozen different strips, and hundreds of hangers and other buildings. Up close were shiny single-engine metal propeller planes, some with broad flat noses and others with pointed noses. There must have been hundreds of those types of planes, some of which were taking off and landing and flying around the base in formations. Farther away were two-engine propeller planes bristling with guns and with open bomb bays. Across from those were other unarmed two-engine planes that must have been cargo planes. Around all of those planes, mechanics and weapon-loaders streamed back and forth like ants. Much farther, beyond the smaller planes were huge four-engine bombers, which were likewise being serviced with antlike Putkurs.

“I can see that Saca is indeed readying for war.”

Luvark said, “Za Malcolm, what other choice do we have with Radimeer making so many threats?”

The gate of the airbase was heavily guarded, so Luvark had to stop and present his pass from the emperor in order to enter. The guards glanced at it and waved us in. Luvark hadn’t driven more than a half kilometer into the base when he turned right and headed to a hanger where small single-engine planes waited. He stopped beside the first hanger, and we got out of the car and pulled the yellow paraglide chute from the trunk. I had packed it into a bright red parachute pack given to me by Sacacon.

A pilot came up to us and bowed and said, “Za Mawgri, Za Malcolm, I am glad to meet you. I am your pilot, Captain Jirkra.”

Mawgri said, “Greetings, but only Za Malcolm is going with you. I have other business to attend to and must leave him to your care.”

Captain Jirkra bowed to him. “By your leave.”

Mawgri gave me a little salute and grin and then turned, rejoined Luvark in the car, and off it sped back to Sacawyz.

Jirkra led me to a small, single-engine airplane with two front seats and two back seats. The cameraman was loading his gear into the back. Jirkra said, “Za Malcom, you will sit up front next to me. When you are ready to jump, let me know, and then wait for my signal.”

We squeezed into the little airplane, Jirkra started the engine, which sputtered, roared and finally settled into a high hum like an angry bee. The noxious, carbonic exhaust floated around us. He spoke into a radio and voices answered him. Then we began rolling down a runway, gained speed, and at last rose slowly into the air. When we had gained enough altitude, Jirkra leveled the plane and said, “My instructions are to fly to the Mt. Zaput area for you to begin your dive. None of the fighter formations will be practicing in that sacred and forbidden area, so it will be safe for us.”

I settled down and enjoyed the scenery. To the east I could see the desert basin dotted with oil derricks drilling into the earth. We were about a kilometer up in the atmosphere and flying parallel with the ridge on which Sacawyz was built. Soon we passed over the city, and I tried to pick out Mawgri’s villa and finally thought I saw it with a tiny yellow car in front. Then the air grew cool and the mountains grew taller and were covered with dark foliage.

Then as we flew parallel to a high plateau, Jirkra leaned toward me and said, pointing a scaled finger ahead to a high mountain covered with black fir trees except for its barren rocky top, “That’s Mount Zaput. The village at the foot of the mountain is where the ecclesiastic guards live to protect the mountain. I’m climbing to two kilometers.”

The plane nosed up into a shallow climb and soon we were above the mountain in cold air. The cameraman tapped the captain to let him know he was ready. “All right, Za Malcolm, anytime you want, you can jump.”

I opened the door, which slid back into the fuselage. “Thanks,” I said. “Here goes.” I stepped out into the frigid air and fell, arms and legs spread. I never looked at the plane, but I knew it would be circling and the cameraman would be shooting. I fell a few hundred feet and then I pulled the ripcord. The chute popped out, filled and suddenly opened, jerking me upward into a draft. I grabbed the lines and tested to make sure I knew which were which; then I parasailed in a broad counterclockwise circle. The paraglider functioned smoothly. On the western arc, I saw the mountain below me and drifted that way. I could hear the airplane buzzing somewhere above me. The bird’s eye view was magnificent. Saca was a beautiful land with its deserts, dark valleys and broad mountains. Since I was still above the mountain, I circled again, but a tighter circle, so when I came around to the west, I would yet be slightly above the mountain. I came around and saw I was almost even with its broad top. I knew that the cave was on the eastern side just above the tree line. I circled again, tighter, and when I came around I was just below the tip of the mountain. Then I performed a figure eight, which was something acrobatic for the cameraman, but also gave me a good view of my target area as I swept back and forth. I turned abruptly toward the mountain and went skimming for the tree line. Then before me to the right, I saw the dark mouth of the cave. I adjusted the chute so it took me there, and I dropped down gently onto the ledge in front of the cave, released the chute pack, and walked quickly inside the cave as the chute, now with little weight to impede it and caught by the wind, blew up and north and disappeared around the mountain.

The cave seemed dense with darkness, and my eyes had little time to adjust from the bright white of the sky when a voice said, “Nice landing, Za Malcolm.”

I pulled my flashlight from the belt and shined its tight stream of light toward the voice, which seemed familiar. It wasn’t Mawgri’s voice, but it belonged to someone I had spoken to before. The light fell on the yellow eyes and scaly face of Sacacon. I bowed and said, “Sacacon, what are you doing here?”

“I came to visit my god. I figured I could help you on your mission, too. And, by the way, let’s drop the royal formality. You and I are both educated enough to know that it’s a bunch of crock. What I love about Mawgri is that he knows it, too, and we long ago came to an understanding as equals—one of the few real friends I have.”

Sacacon was dressed in warm brown hiking boots and thick clothing with none of the pomp of an emperor. Beside him were a backpack, a rifle and a valise. He held two picks in his imbricated left hand. He leaned one pick against his leg and offered me the other. “Shall we go find my god?”

I felt his tongue lightly and companionably on my forehead and said, “Yes, let’s.” I grabbed the pick and we set off for the rear of the cave. As we walked, I said, “I gather that Mawgri has told you what I found in the book.”

“Yes, and I wasn’t surprised. Why would a god write in a book when it could write in the sky or on the face of a mountain if it wished its worshippers to know something? And why write in a language the worshippers could not understand? That never made sense. A god would only write in another language, if that were the language of the gods and there were many of them, which defeats the idea of one god.”

At the rear of the cave, we took the picks, which had one sharp, pointed tip at one end and at the other end a three-pronged iron claw for pulling away rocks, and began to remove rocks and stones and boulders until there was enough room for a Putkur to enter, which left plenty of room for a human. We hunched over and duck-walked into the burial site, for that is what it was.

Once inside, we stood next to the spacecraft, the lighter from Martian Moons. Inside the craft were three skeletons wearing spacesuits. Next to one was a pistol. I picked up the pistol and saw that engraved on the handle was “C. Hennessey, Love, Dad.” I showed it to Sacacon and read the inscription aloud. “It was perhaps a gift for graduating from a military academy.”

“Take it with you. . . . So this suit of bones is Christopher Hennessey, the founder of our religion and composer of our written language and the one who taught us to read and write. We owe him a lot. He really did do us a service by advancing our civilization hundreds of years. Who knows what we would have become otherwise?”

He held up a square of hide and fur that had covered the body. “This must be the skin of the zebok he killed, which became his shroud.”

“What if the Stuwkreen had arrived to find you illiterate hunters and gatherers and worshippers of trees and rocks?”

“That is not a pleasant thought. But here’s a better thought: You humans have been around for eons and are more advanced than we in the Za system. I would love to visit your system.”

“Such a thing is possible, but only if humans become aware that you are here. Another possibility is that the Stuwkreen take you there. I think they will soon have that capacity.”

We looked around the lighter, but I found nothing else that I could take with me. Sacacon, however, recognized that the engine of the lighter might be an advancement over anything his people currently had, and might help his side in the looming conflict with Radimeer. He studied its dimensions, made some notes and finally returned to my side.

“That engine could be useful.”

“But how do you get it out of the cave and down the mountain past the ecclesiastic guards?”

“I’ll think of something. After all, I am Zacon’s chosen ruler and the de facto head of the religion.”

“How did you explain your climb up the mountain?”

“To commune with Zacon and seek guidance for the political crisis.”

“Then all you have to say is that Zacon has left a gift for his people, but it must be extracted from the cave.”

“Yes. I’ll start the process as soon as I return to Sacawyz.”

“I would like to bury the crew.”

“Ok. Let’s do that.”

We dug a trench next to the lighter, pulled out the three suited human skeletons and laid them at long last to rest and covered them with earth. I said a few words honoring them, especially Captain Christopher Hennessey.

We returned to the mouth of the cave and looked out over Saca land. “You have a beautiful country,” I said.

“Yes, and it has been good to us. I hope we can defend it well and survive this contest with Radimeer.”

“The civilization that empowers the most people usually wins in otherwise equal contests. You have begun to empower your people by educating them and moving them toward self-government and by encouraging individual achievement, and your chief ally is the democracy Kunwyz, which has the most empowered people, so I’m optimistic you will prevail . . . if not at first, then ultimately.”

He leaned against the outcropping at the mouth of the cave and looked at me inquiringly, “What do you think of Mawgri?”

“What do you mean? You know he is trustworthy.”

“He is so many things, but does anyone really know him? Do you know him?”

“I love him, but I see what you are getting at. He never reveals everything, so I always have a sense that he is keeping part of himself to himself alone.”

“What is that part that no one knows, that no one can see into?”

“I don’t know.”

He stood erect and brushed his hands over his stomach. “I’m getting hungry. Did you bring anything to eat?”

“No, just water.”

“All I brought is water and a few tak tortillas. We’ll have to hunt something if we want to eat tonight. Mountain zeboks live on the side of the mountain. Of course, we don’t have to eat. Fasting can aid religious communion.”

“A healthy body leads to a healthy mind.”

“Yes, I believe that more than the other. Let’s go hunting.”

Descending into the tree line north of the cave was Sacacon’s idea. He had brought his rifle and thought we would have better luck on the north side of the mountain, which rarely was visited by Putkurs.

He was right. The north side of the mountain stepped down in a series of escarpments following geological terraces. On each terrace were purple meadows among the forest of black trees. Something shrieked and howled in the distance, a terrible, threatening yowl.

“What was that?” I asked.

“That is a creature you don’t want to encounter. It’s the cry of the bashi, a fanged predator that rules these wilds. It calls to claim its territory and keep other bashis away. It is a fierce, savage animal, but it avoids Putkurs if it can.”

I followed him down into the gloomy shadows of the dark trees until we were at the edge of a small meadow in which grazed a small herd of wooly ungulates, their heads moving back and forth as they crunched through the violet sage and purple grass and blue flowers.

“Here are wild northern zeboks. That young female looks healthy.” He nodded toward a plump brown nanny at the edge of the herd.

He raised the rifle, aimed and fired one shot. The zebok at which he had aimed fell, and the remaining alarmed, surefooted beasts hoofed noisily away, snorting and huffing and scrambling onto an outcropping of stone.

We walked into the meadow and found the downed beast lying among the plum grass and blue flowers. “Right through the heart,” said Sacacon, kneeling down over his kill. “A lucky shot.”

He pulled a long, sharp, curved knife and gutted the steaming animal. Then he tied its hooves together, found a branch that was long enough and slid it between the legs to make a transporter. We hoisted the zebok carcass by its hooves and toted it back to the cave.

I went in search of forked limbs to make a roasting spit while Sacacon skinned and beheaded the zebok. I also went to the trees to gather a load of wood and tender for the fire.

While doing so, I heard an especially fierce, piercing shriek close by. Made apprehensive by the cry’s startling proximity, I dropped the load of wood, stood and looked around. Not more than thirty meters away, a large black and tan muscular bear-like animal, glared at me with red eyes and snarled, opening its mouth wide and showing long incisors and smaller teeth, all sharp and deadly for seizing and cutting flesh—a bashi. I pulled my pulsegun from its holster and waited, hoping that the beast would not attack and that I would not have to kill it. Remembering all the resources of my armor, I flicked on the force field, which covered me as a shimmering bowl.

Then suddenly behind me, I heard the crack of a rifle. The bashi screeched and rolled over and thrashed about in the brush. Sacacon ran past me, stopped near the bashi and shot again. The thrashing stopped.

I flicked off the force field, ran and stood beside the emperor and looked down at the beast, now just a lump of flesh and fur and bones cooling on the cold dirt of the forest. I estimated that the creature weighed twice as much as I, and its feet held sharp claws as deadly as its teeth.

Sacacon said, “The fact that it stopped near you and shrieked was not a good sign. It was warning you to clear out of its territory. I couldn’t be sure it would attack or not; I couldn’t take the chance that it wouldn’t have.”

“I’m glad you didn’t. But I was safe, waiting for it to make the first move.”

Pulling out the curved knife, he said, “They have two basic moves: a straight on sprint ending in a slashing knock over, or a circling and closing until they think they have the advantage. Since he wasn’t circling, I feared he would soon sprint. They have been known to back away from Putkurs, but from you he wasn’t picking up the scent of a Putkur. In fact, its bit of confusion probably gave me time to come down.” While he talked, he used his curved knife to skin the Bashi, made a bundle of the skin and head and hoisted that on his back. “This will make a nice trophy. In the old days, to kill a Bashi was a sign of bravery and command, a signal that one was a leader. So I will take it back with me and tell the story of how I fought a Bashi and won. Good public relations. My people will take it as a good omen for the coming conflict.”

I bundled the sticks and branches together and carried them in my arms. Walking back to the cave, I asked, “Do you think it followed the trail of blood from the zebok?”

“Likely. The blood was fresh, so it might have thought it was following a wounded animal.”

He set the Bashi pelt aside.

Then we made the spit and built the fire and set the zebok flesh to roasting inside the cave, so the heat was captured and warmed the cave. From his pack, Sacacon pulled a little golden slavva to rub into the meat.

“You seem at home in the woods,” I said.

“Remember that we Putkurs were nomads before we settled into cities. Hunting and camping and fishing are still considered essential skills for an adult male. Our favorite hunt is to ride an arbez into the desert and run down a smagos among the brush. On another trip when I have more time, you can go with me on such a hunt if you like.”

“I would like to.”

“Well, before darkness falls, I have something for you.” He found the valise and carried it into the light outside the cave. I followed him. He unlocked the valise and opened it. Inside was the logbook of Captain Hennessey. He lifted it and handed it to me. “You have more use for this than I do. Take it.”

I took it. “Thank you, but why?”

“Now that I know what is in it, it can serve no purpose for the empire. Once it is interpreted, the religion of Zacon will be finished, and I need the religion at least until the war with Radimeer has ended.”

“What did you tell the priests?”

“I told them I was returning the book to Zacon.”

“Then you can say that in return Zacon gave you the engine.”

“Good. You’re a quick learner. I will rise early and take the Bashi pelt to the village and begin my story. By the time that happens, you should be with Mawgri on your way to Kunwyz. Well, let’s eat.”

I put the logbook into my pack and then joined Sacacon for dinner. I hadn’t realized how hungry I had become until I took the first bite of zebok. We each had plenty to fill our stomachs, along with the tak tortillas and water. By the time we had finished, the black night had enveloped the mountain. I trod out to gather more wood and built up the fire, so it would keep the cave warm until morning.

When I woke, I was alone in the cave, morning had whitened the sky at the mouth of the cave, and the fire had been reduced to glowing embers. I ate some leftover zebok, drank some water, gathered my things together and went out to the lip of the cave and waited for my beloved Mawgri.

Below, where Sacacon had killed the bashi, predatory flying creatures were circling and settling. Those creatures were scavengers and reminded me of buzzards, but they had brown and black feathers and a bald head and neck and not a beak, but a mouth with small, sharp teeth for gripping and tearing flesh. Mount Zaput and its environs was a cold, dark, sublime and savage wilderness, a perfect place for meeting a god or a devil.

END
 
"Of Gods and Beasts" was first sent to a fiction contest judged by Ursula K. Le Guin, a science-fiction writer whom I have long admired.  I didn't have a true science-fiction story available at the time, so I took a chapter from my sci-fi novel Interplanetary Secret Agent: Book One: Putkwyz, converted it into a short story and sent it to the competition.  It didn't win, of course.  My favorite short story by Le Guin is "The Ones Who Walk away from Omelas."  I first read her when I was a teenager and was enthralled. One of her most famous novels is The Left Hand of Darkness.  "Of Gods and Beasts" is included in the short story collection Touch Me, 2009.
 
Another favorite female sci-fi writer is Anne McCaffrey, who wrote The Ship Who Sang, another story I read when I was a teenager.
 
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Saturday, October 9, 2010

God as an Wild West gunslinger



A LEGEND OF OLD




God is

A two-fisted, sixgun-totin’

Son of a mountaineer.

Jump at the jangle of his spurs.

Cringe at the flash of his broad, silver buckle.

A swoop of his hand: saloon doors swing open.

“Drink thou deeply,” he says.

We drink deeply.

“Pay thou.”

We pay.

“Where are the women?”

No paltry penis he,

But a mysterious filament

With which he spawns and entwines the world

Like a seminal lariat.

His hard boot crunches onto the road.

He is alone.

His hair shimmers.

His gold earring glitters.

He is free as wind.

His spit sizzles on the sidewalk as he mounts.

He rides on in fearsome abandon.

He’ll never make the sunset.

He’s there!



1977

"A Legend of Old" was first published in Monsters in a Half-way House, 1981,
 
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Friday, October 8, 2010

Buck must save two college students Ch.10

ENCOMIENDA

Chapter 10



The only call I got the next day was from Lieutenant Suarez, who had gotten a lead on a dark blue truck that had been repainted a few weeks ago. I met him at the sheriff’s station (I didn’t leave Iris a note this time) and followed him to a residence in the northeast area of town. He drove into a nicely landscaped parking area that looped in front of a large, two-storey, whitewashed stucco house. Hedges on the sides, poplars in front, hibiscus and bougainvillea around the house, well-manicured lawn. I parked next to Suarez’s car and followed him to the broad front door. Whoever these proud people were, they weren’t migrant farm workers.

Suarez said, “I called ahead. They know we’re coming.”

“Who are they?”

“The McAndrews family. One of the private farmers who’ve been here for some time.”

“They own the blue truck?”

“Yes.” Suarez rang the doorbell.

“What’d you discover?”

“Tom McAndrews, the father, took the car in for some body work. Told the body shop manager that it had been banged up around the farm. We’re going for more details. But let me do the talking at first. Then jump in if you think of a question I didn’t ask.”

The door opened outward to reveal a tall, thin, blue-eyed, middle-aged woman, whose hastily tied-back, paprika-and-salt hair indicated that she had not expected visitors so early. “Officer Suarez?”

“Lieutenant Suarez, and this is a private investigator from Miami, Buck Jaspers.”

I nodded. Her clothes were casual, expensive. Her hands long and smooth, not what I’d expect of a farmer’s wife.

She said, “I’m Joyce McAndrews. Come on in.” She led us through a small foyer into a living room where we took seats on a leather couch.

The room had a fireplace with a mantle – a dream of a transplant from farther north, rarely usable in this climate, but a sign of status – on which rested many pictures: one of Mrs. McAndrews and an older, rugged man; several of adults with children – I assumed the children and grandchildren of the man because the woman wasn’t old enough (so, this was his second marriage); and one of a teenager with the lean, long face of his mother, freckles and auburn hair (none of the features of the man, so a stepchild of the father; then maybe the mother had been married before, also).

Lieutenant Suarez said, “Is Mr. McAndrews here?”

She hadn’t sat herself and seemed nervous. She said, “He’ll be here shortly.”

A door opened and closed somewhere in the back of the house. Footsteps approached. The man in the picture walked in, holding a Stetson in his left hand – a man used to physical activity. He was in his sixties, but still muscular and vital under wrinkled, sun-tanned skin. His hair was white, but still thick. His eyes were light brown, but unspectacled. Very healthy for his age. He was wearing a brown cotton shirt, jeans and hiking boots. He said, “Good morning, gentlemen. Tom McAndrews.”

We stood up and shook hands with him. Suarez did the introductions again.

Tom looked at me, said, “A Miami detective? What’s this about?”

Suarez said, “Your dark blue truck was repainted recently, and we’d like to ask you about that. You told the body shop people that it was banged up around the farm.”

Tom looked questioningly at Joyce, who averted her eyes. Tom had the look of someone who was realizing that something was different than he had thought. He said, “Well, I didn’t think it was the body shop’s business how it got damaged, so I gave ‘em a plausible explanation. The truth is somewhat different, but first tell me why a Miami detective has come all this way.”

Suarez said, “Mr. Jaspers has been hired to find two missing college students. He’s traced them this far. Their car was found in a canal. It had been sideswiped by a dark blue vehicle.”

Tom looked at his wife. She gave him a weary smile. He said, “Joyce, go find Jeff. Bring him here.”

She said, “I – I think he’s still in bed.” She put her hand on Tom’s arm. “Don’t be too angry, Tom.” Then she went slowly out of the room. We heard steps softly ascending a stairwell.

Tom turned to us. “Sit down. Sit down.” He sat down on an armchair facing us and put the Stetson on his knees. “That boy’s spoiled. We didn’t mean it to happen so, but he’s her only child, so she’s very – too – protective. As the stepfather, I guess I’ve been more lenient than I was with my own children. But, it’s time to put the foot down.”

“You seem certain he was involved.”

“When did the accident happen?”

“December 7.”

He sighed, “Yep. The next day I noticed the banged-up passenger door and the white paint smears. So I asked him what happened? He said he was a little loaded and swiped a fence. I took his driving privileges away then, but I didn’t know he was lying about what really happened. Will he be charged with manslaughter?”

“No, the boys’ bodies have not been found, so I’m not sure Jeff will be charged with anything so serious. Maybe hit and run and leaving the scene of an accident.”

“This isn’t the first time he’s been in trouble. Just mischief up to now. Underage drinking. Vandalism. Skipping school.”

Then the prodigal son appeared trailed by his mother. His hair had been hastily brushed and he was wearing jeans, a green T-shirt, and unlaced tennis shoes.

Suarez said, “Good morning, Jeff. Sit down. We want to talk to you about the accident you had on December 7.”

Jeff looked at his stepfather and began whining. “Dad, I’m sorry I lied, but I knew you’d be really mad if you thought I was in an accident.”

Tom said, “Sit down, Jeff. It’s time to tell the truth before you get into some serious legal trouble.”

Jeff sat in the other armchair facing the couch. His mother leaned against the entryway. Suarez said, “So, what really happened, Jeff?”

He squirmed and looked at his mother. She gave him no encouragement; she was looking down at her hands, contemplating her own shame. He said, “I – I didn’t mean to hit those Mexicans. But I was gunning the truck, it was raining and the road was a little slick. And it’s washboardy along that strip near Sunniland. I came up on ‘em fast, hit a ridge in the road and bounced into ‘em. That’s all. I was by ‘em in a flash. I seen ‘em swerve to the right, but I was trying to regain control of the truck. Next time I looked I was a mile down the road and didn’t see ‘em at all. I just kept going.”

“You didn’t see them go into the canal?”

“No, sir. I didn’t know they done that. Wasn’t nothin’ in the papers or on the TV about anybody going into no canal.”

“You didn’t stop and go back to see what had happened?”

“No, sir. I guess I should’ve, but I figured if nothin’ was in the news, then they must’ve been ok.”

“How fast were you going?’

“I guess 70 or 80.”

I said, “Why didn’t you tell your father that same day?”

“I – I guess I was hoping he wouldn’t notice right away. But I shoulda known better. He notices everything around here. But I already been in some trouble, so I was hopin’ to avoid more.”

Suarez had been taking notes. He stopped and stood and said, “Ok, that’ll do it for now. I’ll write up a report and it’ll get processed. Jeff, you’re starting out with a horrible driving record. You’re going to be charged with speeding, hit and run, and leaving the scene of an accident. Since you’re cooperating, I won’t take you in now, but in a day or two a deputy will be out with the appropriate papers for you to sign. Your insurance company will have to be notified. Your license will be suspended. There’ll be a large fine and maybe even some jail time. That’ll be up to the judge.”

Jeff was tearing. His stepfather reached over and put a hand on his shoulder. He said, “I’ll see these men out, but stay here. You and I have to talk.”

Standing between our cars, I said to Suarez, “Well, we now know how they got into the canal. But we still don’t know what happened after that.”

Suarez said, “Stupid little punk. I hope his father lets him have it good. If he doesn’t learn the lesson this time, I’ll be seeing him plenty in the next few years.”

“Do you think he’ll go to jail?”

“No, this is his first serious offense. He’ll get probation. Besides his family is too solid in the community.”

“What’s the story with them?”

“The original Mrs. McAndrews died about ten years ago. Cancer I think. Joyce was a secretary for a business associate of Tom’s. She had been divorced early in her marriage before she moved here. That’s how they knew one another. I don’t know much about the boy’s real father except he’s never been around.”

I drove back to the motel, re-convinced that parenting was no easy thing. The parallel between Concepción and McAndrews struck me. Both white-haired fathers, good parents, one anxious over his beloved missing son, the other concerned that his stepson was not turning out the man he could be. I wondered if there was anything a parent could do except try one’s best, then let go. But I could only conjecture, having no experience of my own.

In fact, the closest I had come to fatherhood was suggesting to Cyndi, after we had been dating a while, that our children would have two good parents. Shortly after that conversation, she had gotten skittish. However, I don’t think it was the conversation per se that drove her away. At the time, she seemed to like the idea of motherhood. But later she said something like “would I really be there for her when she needed me.” I said “of course,” but she still shied away. Parenthood was a prickly endeavor without any guarantee of success.

The end of Chapter 10
 
Visitors to Florida don't realize how deep the canals beside the highways can be.  They look like they might be no more than 6 or 8 feet deep, but they can easily be 30 or 40 feet deep, some even deeper up to 100 feet.  We get a lot of rain.
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