Thursday, April 28, 2011

One True Love 32


11



I should have known--

Page 5 Walter Benton,

Tacos, enchiladas, rellenos,

All that dark hair,

All those dark eyes,

All the dark skin.

Ear rings, rock ‘n’ roll,

Dope, booze, Spanish,

Spaghetti, lasagna,

FSU, mountains, sea,

Sun, moon, jeans, mouths,

Noses, legs, boobs, cunts,

Chili, tequila,

New Mexico, fucked-up

Families, rejections, coke,

Clouds white and sky blue--

Everything was leading

Up to

YOU!



"11, I should have known" was first published in Two Wholes Make It Total, 1978.  The persona feels that his new true love had been waiting for him, if only he had known.
 
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Tuesday, April 26, 2011

One True Love 31

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XI



A gentle shepherd

Sitting on a hill

Lay under floating clouds

And overcome by

Ecstasy

He became the world –

Lying still –

The grass is whispering –

Wind waves cover

Him in quiet

Transformation.

And where are his flocks?

Heaven is

No memory.

"XI, A gentle shepherd" was first published in Memento, 1976.  Although the ten sonnets for my one true love ended, here is one last "memory" poem for her, so 21 poems for my one true love.  The persona envisions a shepherd, perhaps a metaphor for the persona who has lost his one true love and his children.  However, other poems were written about my one true love, but those do not fit into any cycle of poems.  They are perhaps afterthoughts, hindsight into what happened and how the union ended.  Plus, there are essays, too. (See the blog posting "the end of romance," Sunday, June 13, 2010, for another poem based on my one true love: "The Golden Moment of Forever.")

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Friday, April 22, 2011

Putkwyz, Ch.9, "The Beasts of Mount Zaput"



9

The Beasts of Mount Zaput



Sacacon stood erect and brushed his hands over his stomach. “I’m getting hungry. Did you bring anything to eat?”

“No, just water.”

“All I brought is water and a few tak tortillas. We’ll have to hunt something if we want to eat tonight. Mountain zebocs live on the side of the mountain. Of course, we don’t have to eat. Fasting can aid religious communion.”

“A healthy body leads to a healthy mind.”

“Yes, I believe that more than the other. Let’s go hunting.”

Descending into the tree line north of the cave was Sacacon’s idea. He had brought his rifle and thought we would have better luck on the north side of the mountain, which rarely was visited by Putkurs.

He was right. The north side of the mountain stepped down in a series of escarpments falling from geological terraces. On each terrace were purple meadows among the forest of black trees. Something shrieked and howled in the distance, a terrible, threatening yowl.

“What was that?” I asked.

“That is a creature you don’t want to encounter. It’s the cry of the bashi, a fanged predator that rules these wilds. It calls to claim its territory and keep other bashis away. It is a fierce, savage animal, but it avoids Putkurs if it can.”

I followed him down into the gloomy shadows of the dark trees until we were at the edge of a small purple meadow in which grazed a small herd of wooly ungulates, their heads moving back and forth as they crunched through the violet sage and purple grass and blue iridescent flowers.

“Here are wild northern zebocs. That young female looks healthy.” He nodded toward a plump brown nanny at the edge of the herd.

He raised the rifle, aimed and fired one shot. The zeboc at which he had aimed fell suddenly as if it had turned from a muscular engine into a ragdoll, and the remaining alarmed, surefooted beasts hoofed noisily away, snorting and huffing, baaing and scrambling onto an outcropping of stone.

We strode into the meadow and found the downed beast lying among the plum grass and glistening blue flowers. “Right through the heart,” said Sacacon, kneeling down over his kill. “A lucky shot.”

He pulled a long, sharp, curved knife and gutted the steaming animal. Then he tied its hooves together, found a branch that was long enough and slid it between the legs to make a transporter. We hoisted the zeboc carcass by its hooves and toted it back to the cave.

I went in search of forked limbs to make a roasting spit while Sacacon skinned and beheaded the zeboc. I also went to the trees to gather a load of wood and tender for the fire.

While doing so, I heard an especially fierce, piercing shriek close by. Made apprehensive by the cry’s startling proximity, I dropped the load of wood, stood and looked around. Not more than thirty meters away, a large black and tan-spotted muscular bear-like animal, glared at me with red eyes and snarled, opening its mouth wide and showing long incisors and smaller teeth, all sharp and deadly for seizing and cutting flesh—a bashi. I pulled my pulsegun from its holster and waited, hoping that the beast would not attack and that I would not have to kill it. Remembering all the resources of my armor, I flicked on the force field, which covered me as an almost invisible shimmering bowl.

Then suddenly behind me, I heard the crack of a rifle. The bashi screeched and rolled over and thrashed about in the brush. Sacacon ran past me, stopped near the bashi and shot again. The thrashing stopped.

I flicked off the force field, ran and stood beside the emperor and looked down at the beast, now just a lump of flesh and fur and bones cooling on the cold dirt of the forest. I estimated that the creature weighed twice as much as I, and its paws held sharp claws as deadly as its teeth.

Sacacon said, “The fact that it stopped near you and shrieked was not a good sign. It was warning you to clear out of its territory. I couldn’t be sure it would attack or not; I couldn’t take the chance that it wouldn’t have.”

“I’m glad you didn’t. But I was safe, waiting for it to make the first move.”

Pulling out the curved knife, he said, “They have two basic moves: a straight ahead sprint ending in a slashing knock over, or a circling and closing until they think they have the advantage. Since he wasn’t circling, I feared he would soon dash at you. They have been known to back away from Putkurs, but from you he wasn’t picking up the scent of a Putkur. In fact, its bit of confusion probably gave me time to come down.” While he talked, he used his curved knife to skin the Bashi, made a bundle of the skin and paws and head and hoisted that on his back. “This will make a nice trophy. In the old days, to kill a Bashi was a sign of bravery and command, a signal that one was a leader. So I will take it back with me and tell the story of how I fought a Bashi and won. Good public relations. My people will take it as a good omen for the coming conflict.”

I bundled the sticks and branches together and carried them in my arms. Walking back to the cave, I asked, “Do you think it followed the trail of blood from the zeboc?”

“Likely. The blood was fresh, so it might have thought it was following a wounded animal.”

He set the Bashi pelt aside.

Then we made the spit and built the fire and set the zeboc flesh to roasting inside the cave, so the heat was captured and warmed the cave. From his pack, Sacacon pulled some salt crystals and a little golden slavva to rub into the meat.

“You seem at home in the woods,” I said.

“Remember that we Putkurs were nomads before we settled into cities. Hunting and camping and fishing are still considered essential skills for an adult male. Our favorite hunt is to ride an arbez into the desert and run down a smagos among the brush. On another trip when I have more time, you can go with me on such a hunt if you like.”

“I would like to.”

“Well, before darkness falls, I have something for you.” He found the valise and carried it into the light outside the cave. I followed him. He unlocked the valise and opened it. Inside was the logbook of Captain Hennessey. He lifted it and handed it to me. “You have more use for this than I do. Take it.”

I took it. “Thank you, but why?”

“Now that I know what is in it, it can serve no purpose for the empire. Once it is interpreted, the religion of Zacon will be finished, and I need the religion at least until the war with Radimeer has ended.”

“What did you tell the priests?”

“I told them I was returning the book to Zacon.”

“Then you can say that in return Zacon gave you the engine.”

“Good. You’re a quick learner. I will rise early and take the Bashi pelt to the village and begin my story. By the time that happens, you should be with Mawgri on your way to Kunwyz. Well, let’s eat.”

I put the logbook into my pack and then joined Sacacon for dinner. I hadn’t realized how hungry I had become until I took the first bite of zeboc. We each had plenty to fill our stomachs, along with the tak tortillas and water. By the time we had finished, the black night had enveloped the mountain. I trod out to gather more wood and built up the fire, so it would keep the cave warm until morning.

When I woke, I was alone in the cave, morning had whitened the sky at the mouth of the cave, and the fire had been reduced to glowing embers. I ate some leftover zeboc, drank some water, gathered my things together and went out to the lip of the cave and waited for my beloved Mawgri.

Below, where Sacacon had killed the bashi, predatory flying creatures were circling and settling. Those creatures were scavengers and reminded me of buzzards, but they had brown and black feathers and a bald head and neck and not a beak, but a mouth with small, sharp teeth for gripping and tearing flesh. Mount Zaput and its environs was a cold, dark, sublime and savage wilderness, a perfect place for meeting a god or a devil.


End of Chapter 9


A year or two ago I saw that Ursula K. LeGuin was judging a science-fiction short story contest.  Not having any such short stories available, I condensed Chapter 7 "Daydreams," Chapter 8 "A Gift of the Gods," and Chapter 9 "The Beasts of Mount Zaput" into a short story and sent it to the contest.  I didn't expect to win.  I just wanted to think that someone whose writing I had admired since I was a teenager had looked at mine and thought it wasn't bad. (see the blog of Sunday, October 10, 2010, to read the story).

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Thursday, April 21, 2011

One True Love 30



10



How many times

Can I touch you?



How many times

Can I kiss you?



How many times

Can I love you?



How many times

Will the earth

Turn before the Sun?

 
"10, How many times" was first published in Two Wholes Make It Total, 1978.  The persona is totally enraptured in his new true love,but he recognizes that in this new love exists the seeds of cosmic experience--not merely flesh and blood.
 
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Tuesday, April 19, 2011

One True Love 29


X


The colors of autumn

Are longings for spring –

The wind is a last,

Chilled reminder

Of the beginning.



Fall shivers and bows,

Shrivels

And

Hopes.

 
"X, The colors of autumn" was first published in Memento, 1976.  The persona has lost hope, but fall makes him remember once again his one true love.
 
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Sunday, April 17, 2011

One True Love 28

X


If I were desert, you would be the rain;
And my too quiet solitude would thirst
For winds and waters cooling to the plain
That stretches dry and barren, wrinkled, cursed.


Then you, at first a darkening sky who throws
Hope’s shadows on my countenance, advance
With faint, slow rustlings, lay your breeze which blows
Upon my cheek of land, arouses dance


Within my soul. First softly, quicker now,
The rains begin and soon are pelting down.
Within my skin the soothing waters flow.
And yes! If only let, in love I’d drown!


And then, like deserts real which rain does groom,
My passion grows, my adoration blooms.

"Sonnet X" was first published in Son(love)nets, 1975.  It is the last of the ten sonnets to my one true love that I wrote monthly until the relationship began to shake and shimmy as if produced by a rumble under the earth.  "Sonnet X" was subsequently published in Monsters in a Half-Way House, 1981, and later won honorable mention in a B.Dalton Bookseller poetry contest (1984).
 
The persona is still clearly in love and his love is expressed both romantically and sexually and is brought forth by the beloved just as the rain brings renewal to the desert landscape.

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Friday, April 15, 2011

Putkwyz, Ch.8, "A Gift of the Gods"

8



A Gift of the Gods


The paraglider had been made and Mawgri had brought it home the night before, so I had already inspected it and found it true to my specifications. I woke eager to go to the mountain, but Mawgri, to tease me, pretended to want to loll around in bed.

“Come back. What is your rush?”

“Mawgri, you know this is important to me. I know from the logbook—‘the sacred, unreadable book’—that Captain Hennessey and his ship are in the cave on the mountain.”

“Very well. I’ll go with you to the airbase.”

“Airbase?”

“Yes, the Emperor Sacacon is having one of his best, most trusted pilots fly you, and he has ordered a cameraman to film your flight, so his forces can study how you manipulate the paraglider. We have two hours before flight time.”

We cleaned and dressed. I donned my uniform and full body armor with weapons and helmet. Mawgri, who had pulled a simple black bodysuit over his pale green-and-yellow scales, said, “Ah, you are magnificent: the warrior of Earth.”

“Cut the cracks. I’m ready. All my bags are packed. Don’t forget to take them with you.”

“I won’t.”

“When will you come to get me?”

“Tomorrow morning. That will give you a day and night on the mountain.”

“Let’s go.”

Luvark, assigned by the Emperor, drove us in the yellow car, but we didn’t discuss what we were up to. I told him I was testing a new parachute that Sacacon wanted for his paratroopers. The drive to the airbase took us down the mountain, across the plateau, and down another ridgeline.

From our final descent, I could see the airbase below in the desert basin, and I then realized how intensely the Saca Empire was preparing for conflict. The airbase was huge, encompassing kilometers and kilometers of runway, at least a dozen different strips, and hundreds of hangers and other buildings. Up close were shiny single-engine metal propeller planes, some with broad flat noses and others with pointed noses. There must have been hundreds of those types of planes, some of which were taking off and landing and flying around the base in formations. Farther away were two-engine propeller planes bristling with guns and with open bomb bays. Across from those were other unarmed two-engine planes that must have been cargo planes. Around all of those planes, mechanics and weapon-loaders streamed back and forth like ants. Much farther, beyond the smaller planes were huge four-engine bombers, which were likewise being serviced by antlike Putkurs.

“I can see that Saca is indeed readying for war.”

Luvark said, “Za Malcolm, what other choice do we have with Radimeer making so many threats?”

The gate of the airbase was heavily guarded, so Luvark had to stop and present his pass from the emperor in order to enter. The guards glanced at it and waved us in.

Luvark hadn’t driven more than a half kilometer into the base when he turned right and headed to a hanger where small single-engine planes waited. He stopped beside the first hanger, and we got out of the car and pulled the yellow paraglide chute from the trunk. I had packed it into a bright red parachute pack given to me by Sacacon.

A pilot came up to us and bowed and said, “Za Mawgri, Za Malcolm, I am glad to meet you. I am your pilot, Captain Jirkra.”

Mawgri said, “Greetings, but only Za Malcolm is going with you. I have other business to attend to and must leave him to your care.”

Captain Jirkra bowed to him. “By your leave.”

Mawgri gave me a little salute and grin and then turned, rejoined Luvark in the car, and off it sped back to Sacawyz.

Jirkra led me to a small, single-engine, high-wing airplane with two front seats and two back seats. The cameraman was loading his gear into the back. Jirkra said, “Za Malcom, you will sit up front next to me. When you are ready to jump, let me know, and then wait for my signal.”

We squeezed into the little airplane, Jirkra started the engine, which sputtered, roared and finally settled into a high hum like an angry bee. The noxious, carbonic exhaust floated around us. He spoke into a radio and voices answered him. Then we began rolling down a runway, gained speed, and at last rose slowly into the air. When we had gained enough altitude, Jirkra leveled the plane and said, “My instructions are to fly to the Mt. Zaput area for you to begin your dive. None of the fighter formations will be practicing in that sacred and forbidden area, so it will be safe for us.”

I settled down and enjoyed the scenery. To the east I could see the desert basin dotted with oil derricks drilling into the earth. We were about a kilometer up in the atmosphere and flying parallel with the ridge on which Sacawyz was built. Soon we passed over the city, and I tried to pick out Mawgri’s villa and finally thought I saw it with a tiny yellow car in front. Then the air grew cooler and the mountains grew taller and were covered with dark foliage.

Then as we flew parallel to a high plateau, Jirkra leaned toward me and said, pointing a scaled finger ahead to a high mountain covered with black fir trees except for its barren rocky top, “That’s Mount Zaput. The village at the foot of the mountain is where the ecclesiastic guards live to protect the holy mountain. I’m climbing to two kilometers.”

The plane nosed up into a shallow climb and soon we were above the mountain in cold air. The cameraman tapped the captain to let him know he was ready. “All right, Za Malcolm, anytime you want, you can jump.”

I opened the door, which slid back into the fuselage. “Thanks,” I said. “Here goes.” I stepped out into the frigid air and fell, arms and legs spread. I never looked at the plane, but I knew it would be circling and the cameraman would be shooting. I fell a few hundred feet and then I pulled the ripcord. The chute unfurled, filled and suddenly popped open, jerking me upward into a draft. I grabbed the lines and tested to make sure I knew which were which; then I parasailed in a broad counterclockwise circle. The paraglider functioned smoothly. On the western arc, I saw the mountain below me and drifted that way. I could hear the airplane buzzing somewhere above me.

The bird’s eye view was spectacular. Saca was a beautiful land with its deserts, dark valleys and broad mountains. Since I was still above the mountain, I circled again, but a tighter circle, so when I came around to the west, I would yet be slightly above the mountain. I came around and saw I was almost even with its broad top. I knew that the cave was on the eastern side just above the tree line. I circled again, tighter, and when I came around I was just below the eastern tip of the mountain. Then I performed a figure eight, which was something acrobatic for the cameraman, but also gave me a good view of my target area as I swept back and forth. I turned abruptly toward the mountain and went skimming for the tree line.

Then before me to the right, I saw the dark mouth of the cave. I adjusted the chute so it took me there, and I dropped down gently onto the ledge in front of the cave, released the chute pack, and walked quickly inside the cave as the chute, now with little weight to impede it and caught by the wind, blew up and north and disappeared around the mountain.

The cave seemed dense with darkness, and my eyes had little time to adjust from the bright white of the sky when a voice said, “Nice landing, Za Malcolm.”

I pulled my flashlight from the belt and shined its tight beam of light toward the voice, which seemed familiar. It wasn’t Mawgri’s voice, but it belonged to someone I had spoken to before. The light fell on the yellow eyes and scaly face of Sacacon. I bowed and said, “Sacacon, what are you doing here?”

“I came to visit my god. I figured I could help you on your mission, too. And, by the way, let’s drop the royal formality. You and I are both educated enough to know that it’s a bunch of foolishness. What I love about Mawgri is that he knows it, too, and we long ago came to an understanding as equals—one of the few real friends I have.”

Sacacon was dressed in warm brown hiking boots and thick clothing with none of the pomp of an emperor. Beside him were a backpack, a rifle and a valise. He held two picks in his imbricated left hand. He leaned one pick against his leg and offered me the other. “Shall we go find my god?”

I felt his tongue lightly and companionably on my forehead and said, “Yes, let’s.” I grabbed the pick and we set off for the rear of the cave. As we walked, I said, “I gather that Mawgri has told you what I found in the book.”

“Yes, and I wasn’t surprised. Why would a god write in a book when it could write in the sky or on the face of a mountain if it wished its worshippers to know something? And why write in a language the worshippers could not understand? That never made sense. A god would only write in another language if that was the language of the gods and there were many of them, which defeats the idea of one god.”

At the rear of the cave, we took the picks, which had one sharp, pointed tip at one end and at the other end a three-pronged iron claw for pulling away rocks, and began to remove rocks and stones and boulders until there was enough room for a Putkur to enter, which left plenty of room for a human. We hunched over and duck-walked into the burial site, for that is what it was.

Once inside, we stood next to the spacecraft, the lighter from Martian Moons. Inside the craft were three skeletons wearing spacesuits. Next to one was a pistol. I picked up the pistol and saw that engraved on the handle was “C. Hennessey, Love, Dad.” I showed it to Sacacon and read the inscription aloud. “It was perhaps a gift for graduating from a military academy.”

“Take it with you. . . . So this suit of bones is Christopher Hennessey, the founder of our religion and composer of our written language and the one who taught us to read and write. We owe him a lot. He really did do us a service by advancing our civilization hundreds of years. Who knows what we would have become otherwise?”

He held up a square of hide and wooly fur that had covered the body. “This must be the skin of the zeboc he killed, which became his shroud. I will take it for the priests.”

“What if the Stuwkreen had arrived to find you illiterate hunters and gatherers and worshippers of trees and rocks?”

“That is not a pleasant thought. But here’s a better thought: You humans have been around for eons and are more advanced than we in the Za system. I would love to visit your system.”

“Such a thing is possible, but only if humans become aware that you are here. Another possibility is that the Stuwkreen take you there. I think they will soon have that capacity.”

We looked around the lighter, but I found nothing else that I could take with me. Sacacon, however, recognized that the engine of the lighter might be advancement over anything his people currently had, and might help his side in the looming conflict with Radimeer. He studied its dimensions, made some notes and finally returned to my side.

“That engine could be useful.”

“But how do you get it out of the cave and down the mountain past the ecclesiastic guards?”

“I’ll think of something. After all, I am Zacon’s chosen ruler and the de facto head of the religion.”

“How did you explain your climb up the mountain?”

“To commune with Zacon and seek guidance for the political crisis.”

“Then all you have to say is that Zacon has left a gift for his people, but it must be extracted from the cave.”

“Yes. I’ll start the process as soon as I return to Sacawyz.”

“I would like to bury the crew.”

“Ok. Let’s do that.”

We dug a trench next to the lighter, pulled out the three suited human skeletons (I relieved Hennessey of his force-field belt) and laid them at long last to rest and covered them with earth. I said a few words honoring them, especially Captain Christopher Hennessey.

We returned to the mouth of the cave and I put Hennessey’s pistol and force-field belt into my pack. Then we went outside and looked out over Saca land. “You have a beautiful country,” I said.

“Yes, and it has been good to us. I hope we can defend it well and survive this conflict with Radimeer.”

“The civilization that empowers the most people usually wins in otherwise equal contests. You have begun to empower your people by educating them and moving them toward self-government and by encouraging individual achievement, and your chief ally is the democracy Kunwyz, which has the most empowered people, so I’m optimistic you will prevail . . . if not at first, then ultimately.”

He leaned against the outcropping at the mouth of the cave and looked at me inquiringly, “What do you think of Mawgri?”

“What do you mean? You know he is trustworthy.”

“He is so many things, but does anyone really know him? Do you know him?”

“I love him, but I see what you are getting at. He never reveals everything, so I always have a sense that he is keeping part of himself to himself alone.”

“What is that part that no one knows, that no one can see into?”

“I don’t know.”

 
End of Chapter 8
 
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Friday, April 8, 2011

Putkwyz, Ch.7, "Daydreams"

A replica of the original Golden Hind
captained by Sir Francis Drake


7



DAYDREAMS



My father, a commodore, had told me that one of our ancestors, a Sheila Talbot, had been a crew member on the Golden Hind. She had been a doctor in the infirmary, so I scrutinized the first forty-one pages of Log of Captain Christopher Hennessey of the Golden Hind to see if she was mentioned. Once on page 18, Hennessey wrote that one of his staff had cut her hand with a knife and had to be sutured and bandaged in the infirmary, but the doctor was not named. On page 25, another of his staff had tumbled down a vertical passageway and broken several bones and was hospitalized with a serious concussion. On page 28, that same person died, and on page 30 his body was incinerated. The doctor was never mentioned.

However, on page 38, hundreds of crew and soldiers had come down with a mysterious illness. Admiral Yakimoto thought the source might have been food poisoning, so she sent a team of doctors to inspect the mess area. They found nothing suspicious. Captain Hennessey had discussed the disease with one of the doctors, and in parentheses in the margin he had written “(Mjr. T.)” I remembered that in parentheses on day 43 he had mentioned the 16 stowaways, “Including Mjr. T,” who had escaped the mother ship aboard Martian Moons. Was the “T” for Talbot? A doctor could have easily been a major, although I couldn’t remember if that had been Sheila’s rank. The result of the inspection and blood tests on all victims had been inconclusive.

A favorite tale of conspiracy theorists on Earth and Mars has been that the Golden Hind had been sabotaged. That theory states that a band of malcontents (usually “Sol Separatists”) had gotten aboard and, once the ship was out of the solar system, had sabotaged it to discourage space exploration. That no group ever took credit for such a thing and that no evidence of sabotage was ever found did not stop the conspiracy theorists from talking and writing books and making documentaries. Now I had to ask: Had the mysterious disease been a form of sabotage?

I had another question? What had happened to the other forty-eight crew members of the Golden Hind who had abandoned ship aboard the freighter Martian Moons?

I perused pages 43 to 51 and found part of the answer on page 51.



08/12/2348 CE, 24:55 Zulu


Yesterday I volunteered for an inspection detail and boarded the lighter attached to Martian Moons. Because of recent events, I cautiously took all of my personal gear with me. Lieutenant Dom was the pilot and Sergeant Paktil, boat mechanic/engineer. Our mission was to inspect for damage from a meteor shower that we had passed through. We have entered the system of the red dwarf, and it has planets with atmosphere. The commander of Martian Moons wanted to be sure that the ship was intact enough to enter the atmosphere of one of the nearby planets and land safely.


Unfortunately, no sooner had we begun our inspection than we realized another meteor shower was imminent. We had no time to return the lighter to its berth. Dom put the lighter into a hard right turn and fired the engine full force. As we slipped out of danger, I looked back and saw Martian Moons surging forward and turning left. Once the meteors had passed (twenty minutes?), we looked around but could not see Martian Moons.


Dom tried to radio, but got no answer. He thought the meteor shower was between us and the other ship and interfering with communications. He told us that the lighter carried only a 24-hour supply of oxygen, so he had no choice but to head for the closest planet. We couldn’t argue with that, so we are heading toward a large brown and blue planet. ETA: 4 hrs.



“Major T” had been aboard the Martian Moons when it separated from the lighter. Had that crew also survived and made a landing, or had they drifted through the Za system until all oxygen was gone and the ship became their mausoleum? I would find out what had happened to the three in the lighter by reading the next page (52).



08/13/2348 CE, 24:23 Zulu


It is past midnight according to my watch, so I must have been unconscious for at least 18 hours. Everything is pitch black and I can hear no sound. I am writing by the light of a flashlight. Dom and Paktil are dead, killed by the force of the impact when we hit a mountain. I survived because I had strapped myself into the robot-stevedore, which absorbed most of the impact for me. I think the lighter has buried itself in the mountain because there is no light at all. I’m beat up pretty badly with bruises and scratches over almost every area of my body.


Tomorrow I will try to get out of the lighter because I know I will die in it if I don’t, but first I am going to eat the remainder of my rations, drink and rest.



Page 53:



08/14/2348 CE, 12:55 Zulu


This planet has an oxygen atmosphere!


I had to pry open a hatch to create a space large enough for me to squeeze out and then pull my personal items after me. Then I had to dig away rocks at the tail of the lighter and squeeze through that opening. Hundreds of meters farther I saw light and moved toward it. The lighter had actually entered a cave and had buried its nose at the rear of the cave. Dom must have been guiding it to the end.


From the mouth of the cave, I have a view of the planet below me. The mountain is covered with black conifers and dark alpine plants. It seems to be part of a ridge of mountains, but it is the tallest. The air is frigid, so my first task was to make a fire. I gathered wood and made a fire at the mouth of the cave behind a rock outcropping to break the cold wind. Below the mountain toward the east (the point at which the planet’s sun rises), is a vast brown plain with small rivers running through it. Below to the south is a purple plateau. North looks icy and forbidding. The sky is a light gray, but looks bluer south.


I went into the conifer forest to find something to eat and came upon a furry four-footed creature that seemed to be rooting plants from the ground. Seeing that it was evidently a herbivore, I shot it with my pistol, the shot ringing out and echoing around the mountain. I dragged the carcass back to the cave, gutted it, skinned it and cooked it by making a barbecue spit with some tree branches. The meat of this animal was red and its consistency was like goat or lamb, but wild, perhaps like venison. I stuffed myself and fell asleep after building up the fire.


I am still very sore and scratched, but the good meal helped. When I woke, the fire had burned down to embers. I got the skin of the animal and cleaned it. The fur is long and thick, so I am making a cape-blanket out of it, something to wrap around me or throw over me to keep me warm.




Page 54 had a meeting that I was anticipating:



08/15/2348 CE, 9:03 Zulu


Today I met an inhabitant of this planet!


Occasionally, I have heard a creature scream. The scream is not always the same and comes from different points. I think it is some kind of predatory animal that lives in the mountains.


In the morning, I drank some water from a small icy pool below the cave, refilled my canteen and had more of the meat from the animal I had killed. While I was eating, I heard something coming up the mountain. I heard footsteps, rocks falling and brush crunching. Not knowing what it could be, perhaps the predator, I tested my force field and readied my weapons and stepped into the darkness of the cave.


Suddenly, I heard a voice saying something, but I understood nothing, but I thought that whoever it was, was hallooing. He would have seen the barbecue, the skin hung to dry, and the fire. He probably thought one of his own kind was here.


Then it stepped into the mouth of the cave. The creature was vaguely reptilian because it had scales over its body and two yellow eyes, but it wore warm clothing, boots and a fur hat. It was carrying something that resembled an ax. It was obviously a form of intelligent life.


I turned on the force field and stepped forward. I had forgotten the force field’s ridiculous green glow. When the creature saw me, it gasped, and fell on its knees and said, “Za-con!” over and over. Then it fainted and fell down prostrate.


I got some water and sat, waiting for the creature to come around. I, of course, meant it no harm, and I was not afraid. Although larger than I, the creature had inferior weapons that could not penetrate the force field, and I knew I could kill it with either my laser or pistol if it acted aggressively.


When the creature regained consciousness, it opened its eyes, saw me glimmering greenly and standing before it and murmured something. It slowly rose until it stopped while its folded legs remained on the ground and it sat. Then it opened its arms in a supplicating gesture.


I said, touching myself, “Chris.” Then I pointed at it.


It got the idea and touched itself and said, “Envak.”


I had the ax because I had wanted to examine it. The head is made of iron honed to a sharp edge; the handle is polished wood. The top of the handle had been whittled down to fit the head hole, which had been hammered down over the haft and the top hammered down to create a ridge to capture the head. Leather straps had then been wound tightly around the head and shaft to make it even more secure. Good basic work.


I pointed to the ax. It said, “Muk.”


You get the idea. We wanted to communicate with each other. I got out a notebook and began jotting down each new word, its sound and meaning. He wasn’t literate enough to do the same and was amazed by my writing and my quickly learning the basics of his language.


I knew Envak (I am sure he is male) was an intelligent life form with a lesser technology, literacy and understanding of science than I had. I soon realized that he thought I was some kind of god that had come to live on this mountain. Evidently, no other humans were on the planet; at least not anywhere near where I was.


His name for me, Zacon, means “king of the world.”



I read the next thirty pages, during which Envak stayed at the cave, helping Hennessey get water, fuel and food, and teaching him Putkeen, which was being written down for the first time by Hennessey.

After thirty days, Envak left the cave and went down the mountain to his village. There he told a wondrous story of meeting Zacon in the cave and how Zacon was teaching him to read and write. The villagers thought he was crazy, but a week later when Envak went up the mountain with a load of supplies on a furry arbez, some of the other villagers followed him.

Hennessey had been watching and waiting for Envak, so he saw the half dozen villagers behind him. He turned on his force field, stood up, and using an amplifier said clearly in Putkeen in a stentorian voice, “[Envak, come to the mountain. Nobody but Envak.]” The villagers looked up, already shaken, and saw Hennessey glowing greenly on a precipice, and heard his voice echoing around the valley. He repeated, “[Envak, come to the mountain. Nobody but Envak.]” To enhance the godly image, Hennessey fired his laser into the top of one tree and set it afire; then he fired his pistol into another which shook, a branch fell, followed by a loud crack echoing around the mountain. The villagers, now agog and in shock, tumbled back down the mountain as fast as they could go, their minds filled with fear and wonder at the god that could command thunder and lightning and speak with the voice of multitudes. (pp. 84-85)

Next Hennessey undertook to write laws that all Putkurs should follow and wrote them in a notebook that he had found in the lighter. He invented letters for Putkeen sounds and taught them to Envak, who understood that Zacon had taken a special interest in him. Then he asked Envak to read the laws that he had written. Sounding the lines out, Envak read the laws about not killing, not stealing, not coveting what others had, etc. He liked them and told Zacon he was very wise. Hennessey told him that when the time was right, Envak should take the written words down the mountain and read them to his people. (pp. 86-185)

I recognized some of what Hennessey had used to build his body of laws: ideas from the Quran, from the Gospels about Jesus, from the teachings of Buddha, from the way of Lao Tzu, and from the writings of Gandhi and other reformers. One passage that I knew by heart was directly from Gandhi:

The seven sins are


Wealth without works,


Pleasure without conscience,


Knowledge without character,


Commerce without morality,


Science without humanity,


Worship without sacrifice, and


Politics without principle.



There were other events in the log, but I wanted to know why Hennessey had done what he did: invented a religion and gave laws to an alien people. On page 266 he attempted to explain himself.



“I can carry out this deception only as long as the force field holds out. I scavenged Dom’s and Paktil’s force-field belts. I know the user’s manual says ’90 days before recharging,’ but I don’t use one when Envak is gone or if I’m in the cave alone. I’m hoping to milk an extra ten or twenty days from each one. That means that I can last about nine or ten months as a ‘god.’


By then I want Envak to have the capacity to read, write and spread the laws that I am giving him, based on the most popular of Earth’s religions—as far as I remember them. When the last force field begins to fail, I will end my life and disappear.”



Hennessey had wanted to pass on the idea of a written language and of written laws that could be used by Putkurs to advance their civilization—a risky endeavor, for the consequences would have been uncertain. However, he had had more success than he would have wished; he had created a god and a religion based on his writings, but like all intelligent beings, some Putkurs got it, some didn’t, and some could not care less.

I skipped to page 304 in order to read his final words.

“The end has come. I know some might say that I was foolish to try to bring law and language to the Putkurs, but I wanted to do some good before I left the universe.


Yesterday, I sent Envak down the mountain with all the writings and told him to copy the writings, to teach other trusted Putkurs to learn to read them, and send those trusted followers to all the corners of the planet, so there would be a brotherhood of teachers and ministers to keep the laws and help their people.


I know he will do it because he feels that Zacon has told him to do it, and he believes Zacon has called him. I told him that I was not Zacon, but he could call me Ghandi, the messenger of Zacon.


I told him that only he should come up the mountain again or enter the cave. No one else should come up the mountain. When he returned, I would be gone and would not return, but I would leave him my book inside the cave.


I will do so tomorrow. Then I will go to the rear of the cave and cause an explosion that will seal me and the lighter inside the rear of the cave. There I will shoot myself in the head.”

That night I told Mawgri all I had learned. The story made us both solemn and a little sentimental. He held me in his arms until I fell asleep.



End of Chapter 7

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Thursday, April 7, 2011

One True Love 27



9



I never wanted

To bury myself

In a body before –

Like you are the earth

And I need

Your nourishment.



I want to sink

My roots deep

Into your soul

And then I want

To grow.

 
"9, I never wanted" was first published in Two Wholes Make It Total, 1978. The persona marvels at how his new true love inspires him.
 
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Tuesday, April 5, 2011

One True Love 26


IX



Before I knew you,
I roof-top danced
Yelling obscenities for Christ.


Before I knew you,
My legs would not be still.


And when I knew you,
My knick-knack existence
Was gilded and jeweled.


Since . . .
The bitter paralysis,
The silent, dark numbness,
The one remembrance.

"IX, Before I knew you" was first published in Memento, 1976.  The persona, who had previously been a lover of life, has become immobilized by oppressive memories.
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Sunday, April 3, 2011

Toward the Navajo reservation


CROWNPOINT TO THOREAU




Imagine a postcard landscape:

Yellow buttes, red mesas

Dotted with piñon pines

And the sky swallowing the earth

In a shifting kaleidoscope

Of light and clouds and shadows

Under a bullet-bright sun.



Next imagine highways:

Dark ribbons weaving through green valleys,

Coursing around the stoic faces of cliffs,

Cresting pine-clutched heights,

Falling exuberantly into sere troughs,

Or flushed under torrential sheets of rain.



Then imagine dots along the roads,

Transforming into dark-haired, red-skinned people

Moving in a slow walk,

Their backs to the traffic,

Sometimes a thumb lifted,

Sometimes a dollar flag flapping from loose fingers –

But without expectation.



These are the Indians

Pacing the pace of centuries gone

Before horses, before the caging

Of horses in monstrous machines,

Before humans flew

Into the devouring sky.



2006

 
"Crownpoint to Thoreau" was first published in the Ann Arbor Review, 2007.  I wrote it after I visited my sister on the Navajo reservation in New Mexico.  I am publishing it on the blog today because of an email from a reader.  The missive follows.
 
"Jerry, Bryce and I are friends of Deb in Crownpoint. Met you when you were helping her move. Now in Kitwe, Zambia. Just before I left for Africa, read all your novels that Deb had, plus the two I bought on line. Love [']em as well as the poem you wrote about the road between Crownpoint and Thoreau. It's hanging on the wall above my desk in Zambia to remind me of the real NM. Write some more. Even better, come visit us in Africa and write some poetry about it."



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Saturday, April 2, 2011

One True Love 25


IX



All sailors choose a guiding light whereby
They find secure direction under dome,
A star high in the pure and cloudless sky
To be a beacon for their journey home.


The mountaineer selects an easily
Identified and prominent, well-placed
High mark to guide his movements carefully
Across the danger, wilderness and waste.


A pilgrim trails the lighted window’s glow
Atop some shafted tower built to reach
Above the roofs and chimneys, stout but low,
Of house or store. He knows this for surcease.


Oh, I do have a point of safety, too.
The peak which guides and directs me is you.


"Sonnet IX" was first published in Son(love)nets, 1975.  Points of guidance are to which the romantic persona compares his one true love.  She like the celestial marker, the topographical peak, or the city tower is a signal that steers the persona home.  But is she really such a marker?  Or, is this conceit merely a hope of the persona?  Instead, could she be a convergence of disappointment and come tumbling down?

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Friday, April 1, 2011

Putkwyz, Ch.6 "Amusements"

6



Amusements



When Mawgri arrived home that evening, terse as always about what he had been doing, I amused him with my account of my day: the mountain temple inside a cave, the logbook of the mess officer, eating with the house servants, and my study of the logbook for the rest of the day.

After I had finished, Mawgri said, “So a mess officer of a solar starship was the founder of Kandizam. That is rich.”

“He was a good cook and organizer, but religion was not his strength.”

“Did you mention any of this when you had lunch with the servants?”

“No, should I have?”

“Absolutely not. I am reticent and maintain my distance not because I have any feelings of superiority, but because I have to lessen the chance that I might let something slip and jeopardize my business.”

“You know they won’t bring up a subject; they waited for me.”

“Did you?” He had a look that I had seen before: it showed amusement at my naiveté, and apprehension that I might have given up a secret, and pity for my callow approach to existence.

“I asked about democracy,” I said, a trifle annoyed.

“Interesting, and what did they say? You know only Luvark can read, although I suspect Natwik [the valet] has been studying on his own.”

“They expressed a desire to read and write; they thought that would be good. About democracy they weren’t so sure. They have a limited concept of what it is. Natwik seems to be the most disposed toward it.”

“Have you noticed that they have a special pride in their little domains: the cook with the kitchen, the gardener with the plants, Luvark with the auto, the housekeeper with cleaning?”

“Yes, I see that, and I see they have the seeds of being proud free people.”

“When we go to Kunwyz, you will see free people.”

“Sacacon is enlightened, but I wonder if there are citizens of Saca who want to retain the old ways?”

“Of course, there is a conservative movement—mostly nobles—who like the old system and want to retain their elevated status. You saw how guarded the palace is. That is to protect Saca more from a coup or an assassination than an attack from any outside enemies.”

“Could our attackers have been sent by that faction?”

“The thought has crossed my mind. They fear me as a liberalizer and think that I am influencing Sacacon to make reforms. But it is truly the other way; Sacacon has his own ideas, but he asks for my input because he knows I understand democracy.”

“How about the Radimeen daggers?”

“Those would not be hard to get. They are a popular gift from Radimeen nobles to others, and it wouldn’t be hard to knock off copies.”

“Would the conservatives collude with Radimeer to try a coup if he attacks?”

“Mmm . . . Kra would love that . . . but I’m not so sure a Saceen nobleman would go for it. There is a history of distrust and animosity between Saca and Radimeer; any Saceen thinks he is the better of any Radimeen. And such a mutiny would involve acts of both treason and heresy. Part of the conservatism is allegiance to Sacacon. Such a revolt would put them in a quandary, a quagmire of moral choices. No, I don’t think a Saceen noble could do it; most would rather cut off an arm than offend Zacon’s chosen leader. Furthermore, Saceen nobles have invested heavily in Saceen corporations; they would be betting against their own enterprises, which constitute the military-industrial complex. Besides, their ally is the third most powerful military force: Kunwyz. And don’t forget Stuwkrik. The most powerful force in the Za System is supporting their side. No, I can’t see a coup succeeding. ”

“Well, enough of politics.”

“Before we leave politics, let me ask if you’ve heard the news on the television or the radio.”

“No, I spent all my time with the logbook.”

“Then you don’t know that four of the kingdoms on Luka have appealed to Sacacon to let them join the alliance against Radimeer. Only Ladimeer—which has linguistic, cultural and historical connections to Radimeer—is seeking neutrality. The rest feel threatened that Radimeer will take them over.”

“Will Sacacon let them in?”

“I doubt it. There’s no advantage for Sacacon. They would only be a burden on him, and he could not practically defend them except by conquering Radimeer. He’s giving a televised speech on the subject tonight.”

“Speaking of Sacacon, I have a question about Kandizam.”

However, Mawgri ignored my statement and instead asked, “Did the cook prepare anything for supper? Sorry to interrupt, but my stomach is demanding some attention.”

“I don’t think so. Your standing order is to not to fix anything unless you call since you so often work late.”

He headed toward the kitchen and I followed him. He pulled open the refrigerator, and I leaned against the entrance walls and watched him gather items. I found him extraordinarily beautiful. He pulled out and set on the kitchen table sliced tak bread, slices of smagos, gwarg butter, and kepoc cheese. “I’ve grown fond of your sandwiches,” he said as he buttered the bread and piled on the other ingredients. To top off the masterpiece, he sprinkled some salt and then some slazza. He grinned as he sat at the kitchen table and took his first bite.”What?”

“I find you very attractive when you are taking pleasure in simple things.”

He chewed while smiling, but refused to try to talk while he was eating.

I got him a clean glass and poured him some cool, clear water. He nodded his thanks.

Then I made a sandwich for myself and sat across from him. We happily chewed and admired each other.

I had seen a picture of his mother and father. His mother Tatmil was the Saceen Putkur, and her scales were the same green and yellow as his but darker and covered her entire body except for palms and soles and genitalia; he also had her almond shaped eyes and yellow eyeball, although the center of his eye was the round brown iris of a Stuwkreen, his father.

His father Bonli Qampoq had been a son of one of the first ambassadors to Saca. There he had met an extraordinary woman, for in a society in which women had second-class citizenship, his mother, the daughter of a powerful relative of the Sacacon, had insisted on learning everything her brothers learned, so she read and wrote and became a scientist in her own right, specializing in biology. She was the one who had darkened the leaves of Putkwyz agricultural plants and allowed the greater productivity which had supported an explosion of population. She was also the first noble to pay her servants a small wage, so they could have their own money (which has become standard procedure decreed by Sacacon and has contributed to the healthy economy of the empire).

Naturally, Bonli had seen her as a worthy mate, for on Stuwkrik men and women were equal and shared the duties of work and home. Since Tatmil knew she was the equal of any man, she appreciated that Bonli treated her as an equal and loved her for who she was, so she had no fear of leaving Putkwyz for Stuwkrik.

Most of Mawgri’s appearance was more Stuwkreen: five-fingered hands and five-toed feet, mammalian genitalia, and where brown skin showed, hair. On the top of his head he had thick, shiny brown hair. The Stuwkreen part made him suspect in the eyes of Putkeen, but the fact that he had genetic gifts from the line of the Sacacon made him accepted.

His sandwich eaten and washed down with water, Mawgri burped quietly and looked at me. He sighed and said, “Ah, I feel much better now. What was it you were going to ask me about Kandizam?”

I put down the remaining corner of my sandwich and said, “Oh, yeah. Is Kandizam a global religion or just Saceen?”

“Good question. Before Kandizam, most Putkurs worshipped a pantheon of gods and goddesses and chose one of those to be the special god or goddess of the family and house. And there was no stigma attached to choosing any of them, although different tribes had different preferences based on their myths and folklore. Among the nobility, there was a tendency to worship Za, the sun god, who gave light and helped plants to grow and was the symbol of sustenance. The nobility called him the chief god. This pattern of worship was universal except that Kuneen might have a different word and Radimeen another for the same god concept. The Kuneen believe the Miki tree is sacred.”

“How is Za different from Zacon?”

“As a name for a god, Za means ‘sun god’; Zacon means ‘Ruler of Za,’ in effect ‘Lord of the Za System’ or ‘Lord of the World’ because at that time, none knew of a world beyond the Za System.”

“How about the word ‘Kandizam’?”

“When the god appeared on Mt. Zaput, he told the people that he was the representative of Zacon and we should call him Kandi. From that the priests called the religion Kandizam or ‘the word of Kandi”; in effect, the teachings of Kandi on which the religion is based.”

“So is it a global religion or not?”

“Both. It is primarily a Saceen religion because it makes Sacacon God’s representative on Putkwyz, but because it is written down and has wisdom for all, the books have been carried to other continents where Kandizam has become popular. There are worshippers on Kunwyz and on Luka with one difference: They reject that Sacacon is God’s representative and claim that any Putkur can read the book and gain knowledge and wisdom to help his life. They don’t need a caste of priests telling them what to believe.”

“Captain Hennessey would be proud.”

“In fact, Kandizam now has the status of the one true religion and has pushed all other religions onto the edges of acceptability. There are a few holdouts for Za the sun god, especially in Radimeer because the emperor is considered descendant from the sun god. His flag is gray and brown, representing the bright light on the brown earth. In the center is a green spotted egg of an aubligado, representing royalty and fertility.”
“Are there any pantheists left?”

“Oh, many continue to have a special house god, but it is a tradition more than a belief system. In the tribal polities, the old gods are still worshipped to some degree among the illiterate masses on the other side of the planet on the other five continents that are ruled by kingdoms.”

“You haven’t talked much about those continents.”

“Two of the continents are near the polar zones, one north and one south. Those are frigid with ice year round and sparsely populated with illiterate tribes.

“The largest continent is Myunk; the literacy rate is very low and it is divided into about fifty kingdoms that are in perpetual warfare with one another. Borders are continually shifting and states rising and falling. Because of the constant warfare, none of them have developed the infrastructure that could support large nation states or an industrial economy. Radimeer has begun supplying modern small arms to certain states who have vowed allegiance to the emperor. Meanwhile, Sacacon has pledged support to others if they begin literacy programs and Kunwyz has sent ambassadors to promote democracy. But Myunk remains a murky, unstable land.

The other two small continents are more peaceful. One lies in the equatorial belt and the other in a temperate zone; both have agricultural systems. Each is one kingdom, and both are desperately trying to stay out of any conflicts brought on by other states. They supply food and textiles to other continents and in return have gained modern industrial items and are transitioning from animal and wind power to fossil fuels. They also have beautiful beaches and lagoons, so are a favorite vacation spot for others.”

That night we watched Sacacon give the speech about Radimeer’s aggressive stance. He warned that the rest of Putkwyz could not stand idly by while Radimeer gobbled up other states and caused trouble around the planet. He said that there was a point of no return that would compel his alliance to fight, and he hoped other nations would help them to beat back the imperial menace.


End of Chapter 6

Malcolm is pleased to have fallen in with a chief supporter of democracy against autocratic regimes.  He hopes that this side has an edge over the Emperor of Radimeer.

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